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:Wednesday, July 18, 2007:

I'm not really in the mood to talk much. After all, I wasted
my time on my projects just to get hounded by a girl.
I took a puff yesterday on my window porch at 3+ in the
morning after trying to complete my project, and after
everything happened.

I cried. I fucking cried. After all that has happened around
me and to me, with troubled thoughts that kept running
through my mind, I dare not talk to anyone about it anymore.
I want to quit school, and leave to a faraway place.

With "run" by snow patrol on my itunes, the quietness of
the night really proves how lonely I am. Everyone's peacefully
asleep. The silent cold night wind blew and my tears fell just
like heavy droplets from the heart.

The people around me, some cloaked with jealousy just out
there ready to strike me down when I am weakest. If you're
not insincere, please stop benji-ing me around. It doesn't help
cause I'm not the one bring you to what you want to become off.
Just ditch me and ditch your conquest. Cause I know you used
my name in vain yet again.

Benji


| Stripped and Lusted 9:58 AM| |

__________



about the boy.
'benji
02may88.taurus
maxatom@hotmail.com

sitting in the dark.
in a room. facing the wall.
looking back at the past.
wearing a mask, hiding the truth.
it's time to reveal everything.

gaps left behind.
the streets were wet and the gate was locked.
so i jumped it and let you in.
with your hand around my waist.
everything could be felt again.
and i knew that you meant it.

not forgetting.
Andy
Benji
Cindy
Chu Yang
Dennis
Darren
Fyedee
Gary
James
Jeremy
Jiawei
Jimmy
Jayden
Matthew
Max
Nick
Shuhui
Sean Remiel
Trent
Wei Hao
Xiaotaizi Didi

I declare.

I declare that there are losers in life. But nothing compares to those whom spam tagboards. Cause they have nothing better to do but try to beautify other people's life by the attention they are giving.

Blessed Be,



antiquity.