:Monday, October 31, 2005:

okay, the transporter 2 is a show that advertises for nokia, apple and the audi car.
its a sure-wont-miss scene in the show.
been having so many things on my mind.
not knowing how to tell which is right or wrong.
surprised that you msged me today.
i guess that to you, i am nothing but someone to talk to.

i dont like being made use off.
i dont like pple giving me empty promises.
i hate that already.
i used to believe in the things that you once said,
now, i doubt every word you preach.
you said you missed me.
now, everything is nothing more than words.

been having mood swings lately,
not showing it out.
i dont want my friends to see me in this state.
if there were to be anything that were to happen to me,
plz my friends,
tell mummy that i love her.
been listening to the song that doreen sent me
title: Until i get over you - Christina Milian

lying on my bed,
thinking of the things that has happened to me in the past.
with da jie and gang. zach. kenneth...and of course, not forgetting ryan*sighs*.
we have been this far.
all the things that we have all been through.
all the pain i was left to felt all alone.
until i get over you,
i guess that i will stay the way i am.

please,
tell mummy i love her k?

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 10:47 PM| |

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my blog has been quiet for sometime.
totally forgot about my blog.
could have been my probs with him
been getting to me alot i guess
i've changed. totally changed.

my dressing, my attitude,
i changed for you.
now i will no longer want that.
i will be myself
its easy saying that but i dont think i am strong enough to stay this way.
please dont make a move on me.
i know as my friends, you meet well,
but i dont want to spoil our friendship if we were to break.
its just best to stay as friends.

i am unstable i guess.
jay, den be friends,
i know what u told dream.
she told me..its not her fault
i was really in a shit mood
den, u and eddy can be together hur..

going out during class..
pon-ing sch..
you think that i am doing all these to spike you?
me gng out with my poly friends and eddy, den they all,
you're not happy? u know them what.
and now u come and tell me all these probs and stuffs.
its not me. its you.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 12:01 AM| |

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:Saturday, October 29, 2005:

listening to my blog song
cant help but think of the way we met, we became friends, we became together, we were happy,
we quarrelled, and seperated.
so many things has happened.
u want me back.
i am with someone else.
i'm confused. i'm lost.

cant help but fit myself in a drama show about myself.
standing here, in the center of two people which i still loved.
having to choose a side.
then me leaving,
leaving you behind,
walking away in the snow,
my figure, my shadow,
disappearing from your sight,
slowly, with tears flowing
looking back,
thinking whether the decision made is right.

as snow falls, so has our relationship turn cold.
its difficult for me to decide
i have to stand tall, but the ground beneath
me is starting to give way,
fall away from you,
baby, i love you.
i dont want to leave
i dont have a choice
i still want to run to you
but u always turn away.
you always said i care too much
i am left picking up the pieces of you.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 6:30 PM| |

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woke up this morning to find 14 missed calls registered on my cell.
6 msges were also received
i slpt throughout yesterday night,
not wanting to answer any calls because i was in my dream world.
some of the calls were from my friends but the majority was from him.

replied the msges this morning.
i dont really know what to reply anymore.
mixed tots i guess.

i am thinking of cutting my hair again,
wanna ask lydia where she cut hers..
ha ha..at fareast too..
was playing the piano this morning and i came across this old book.
the old book contains many different songs
and i found some nice.
i'll be playing more i guess
there is also the maksim ones in there

waiting for next week to come..
wont be in sch on tuesday, wednesday and thursday
will be going shopping for my tee
*looks at wallet*
hmmm..
will see what i can do i guess.
should be ok,
although i want to change my cellphone by christmas,
i have to save up now.

today's my nanny's birthday.
what should i get for her?
*thinks*
but now, my wishlist has increased.
adding in:
(1) laptop
(2) cellphone
(3) more clothes
(4) hair cut

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 1:09 PM| |

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:Friday, October 28, 2005:

my script writings has never been better
its like everyone's script writings are so formal and in pure purrrfect english,
cant they have imagination and creativity?
use singlish!
pple laugh ok!

been having a series of fortune events lately
hmmm, the frequency of me seeing you in school is getting more
thus once our eyes met
stop appearing in my mind
i feel more and more guilty now
thats why doreen and i are les partner..
*sorry jess*
ha ha...
i wanna stop thinking about you.
you fill my mind with nothing but your picture
hmmmm,
let me sleep at night
dreams dreams...
i am happy seeing you,
but then, irony i guess.

there are bitches next door to me now
been making a hell lot of noise
couldnt really come out with my RJ
maybe i'm not in the mood
i'm not stable. i'm confused.
i know its bad.
and yet, i cant do anything.
double irony.
I want this to be over.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 6:43 PM| |

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Woke up late today..*darns*
7 am..wtf..
mother didnt wake me up
didnt want to go to sch either, thinking of having to be in the same team as the freak again
*sighs*
A102 UT..had to go anyway.

hours later in sch...
regretted coming
i was supposed to be in the same team as that freak...again
but Nat Goh changed...
*thank god*
regretted again.
what i studyed yesterday didnt really come out.
it came out more of polar water molecules than organic chem!
*darns*

Quote for today: Today, my classmate died

i wont pon sch today.
seems fun after the script was read out..
ha ha...
Benji wants to enjoy this day
without daryl by his side.
Benji is not happy with daryl.
will be going down to fareast laters
to get mua purple tee
happy birthday emily!

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 9:42 AM| |

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:Thursday, October 27, 2005:

Quote of the day : I feel it in my bones. It will rain

studyed at library after class today
A102 Basic Science is so0 not basic
organic chemistry for tmr's paper
i dont think i'll be able to do well,
my chem shuxks to the core.

define love. what is love.
am i in love now? or just happy?
whats with boyfriends and that attitude?
well, although i know that u dont mean anything,
just becoz u r going a tough period now,
that means that u can attitude me hur
i go out with my poly peeps,
and u get jealous? or is it that i dont tell you.
i have a life too.

went fareast after study.
with jacy and doreen...
hmmm...took neoprint... -.-
ha ha..damn funny lar..will try to get the pics up
no promises.
wanted to get purple tee
found but no size avaliable
*craps*
thought of going back to freshbox or something tmr
to look for a purple tee

Benji hopes to score well tmr
Benji hopes to stay loved
Benji hopes for no more freaks in my class
Benji is still hoping

Ending Quote of the day:
Friends.. We must learn to exploit them before they exploit us. Friendship is just a transaction between two people. so that they can make use of each other in a morally-legal way.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 11:19 PM| |

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'what comes around, goes around'
believe in this statement?
i do. why?
been talking to dear abt the AJ in my class
and hmm..he is saying more things about me now
its all coming out, i am knowing more and more things
today's my mother's module..anna tan
*sighs*
and the 2nd member that can join her in the kee siow club is that AJ
and he has to come today and sit next to me

darn K.P.O
he is like looking at my lappy screen
into all my msn conve, my blog and my daily grades
and the thing is that: he gets too0 close! >.<''
i dont like that, i'm not comfortable near him
just like that ryan.
i dont like him, so darling dont have to worry yea
ha ha..i'm not runner lar. o_0''

been realizing that my friends are changing around me
i no longer hangout much with PS0102 peeps
its over i guess, although we still meet,
but the talking styles are different
hmmmm...*ponders*
and the amount of thickskin BHB friends are increasing
*ahem - Jovan*
wonder what he was talking to me about yesterday
ha ha...

benji in pink lar
doreen wanted to see ma
so went over to baby's hse yesterday
slpt and wore his pink shirt..
o.- ///
ha ha...
guessed that will be going town later with PB0107 peeps
varun wants to chill,
i dont want that freak to come with us
but i got this sudden urge to para para.
*diao*

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 11:06 AM| |

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:Wednesday, October 26, 2005:

went to chill after skool today with PB0108 peeps
with doreen, lydia mel jess etc.
wasnt in a rather positive mood..
been thinking about my baby said to me
about other AJs out there
and its seems to be true as there is a freak in my class
hmmm, can dear read my mind or is he guessing
he said that there is someone in my class that is not coming out
hmmm..could it be?

well, that guy is freaky
i dont think he knows that but he is
he claims that he has a bf b4,
hmmm dont look like, total liar!
when i confronted him about what he said behind my back
he claimed that he didnt
and when i pop the qns whether he is bi,
he said no
fark this kinda AJs.

people has been praising me about my msn dp
a few examples:


ha, sexy hur, baby's jealous
*money money hom*
comments from st8 and crook pple were pleasing
ha ha...sexy and daring mah
wrong meh?
except rachy, ah ha
she dont want to talk to me until i change my DP
but, she is still toking to me...
crap crap >.<

been like warning pple about my DP
i think some of them are offended
well, sorries then,
but i wanna express my mad tots in my mind!
o, and my sis (who is a tcher) asked me to becareful about what i blog and say
she said that i can be quite HARSH in my words.
really meh? -.-
and b4 she left, she said
that teachers can sue us (bloggers) for bloggin about them
if they know their limits in scolding,
we know our limits in blogging.

then i was thinking
*my problem meh?*
a ha...
i love my attitude

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 11:43 PM| |

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:Tuesday, October 25, 2005:

rain this afternoon during presentation
my team didnt have to present anything today
*lucky hands*
we had draw lots and my team got lucky thanks to my hands!
*sexy*
ha ha...emily is going to die of intoxication soon with me

went PS to meet john mayer aka SJH,
now i know why he wants to eat at PS cartel
reason being: he is working there and wants to show off to me
wtf!
PS cartel employees are mostly crook
its so obvious, even the manager is crook.
except that Irene i think.

had tea with him and went to meet baby at toa payoh for awhile
he is not happy but he is sexy. and he is mine.
ha ha..*sexy*
*ahem* doreen, care to add?
wahahah...
having china relatives stuck with you for 3 weeks = no joke!
its ok, you will make it lar..you always will
although i am sick now -.-
voice croaks like a toad, no more little prince farking crapy shit

PS0102 is breaking up...its happening already
one by one, we will disappear
spoke to jamie today, didnt know why she was typing in caps.
shouting? i just think that she is too0 screwed up to think st8 now.
she doesnt know what she is even typing and still think of clearing things with me?
fat hope. whats the use of saying sorry now after what you have said out already?

"They can say
Anything they want to say,
Try to bring me down,
But I won't face the ground,
I will rise steadily sailing out of their reach,
Although they do try,
How to make me feel that I,
Don't matter at all,
But I refuse to fall,
Tell me what I believe or loose faith in my dreams,
'Cause there's a light in me,
That shines brightly yes"
-Mariah Carey

you can say all you want Benjamin Sim
we will last. somehow,
u just love knowing whats going on between me and my dear
go find out yrself. but judging from what you told me that u had bfs b4,
i think that u are lying. not only i think this way
many others that know abt you, do.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 9:20 PM| |

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hmmm..more and more are coming out
that is what it seems..
coming out of the closet and talking more abt the homos
my god, what have we done!

was late for sch today,
had no mood to come after all, it was math
*yawns*
i'm sure that my blog has been view more and more
hmm...pple i know?
pple i dont know
shd i change my blog now
or shd i just stopped blogging already

things are getting more and more clear and yet gross
ewwwwww~
pang ray and i were right all the while from the start lar
talking abt crook's looks
ha ha...
my msn is screwed up
getting slower and slower
sexy~ha ha

and i dislikes the sterotypes about linking blogging to gays
becoz there are st8 guys that blog
dont sterotype blogging to gays just becoz girls does it too
if not, biking will kill yr manhood.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 12:10 PM| |

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:Monday, October 24, 2005:

*sweets*
been sayin that like that whole day..
sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeetss
ha ha...
didnt do much today in school
kinda slacken off track alot
came back home and slpt
and thanks to the rain,

made me slp till like 9+ until deary msg me
wtf, late lar!
RJ, quiz and evalution not done.
didnt bother much..
was eating and watching arts central when koh cheng mum appeared!
ha ha...
it was still extremely auntie show called Going Straits
its damn funny and crappy lar
"i only have 3 moods for the year. bitch, bitch and more bitch"
-.- ... diao
haha...crappy lar..

rushed through RJ, wrote crapp
boy kissing
*sexy*
ha ha..da jie send me loads~!
wooho0
ha ha..wtf
that is so0 not right
was not happy for the night
my back was aching again
when samantha talked to me!~!
after soo0 long..
hey there girlfriend..been great hur

one more statement from me to jamie
you can screw yr numoronic life up by obviously 2 timing guys and be a slut/whorehead
if just becoz we bicker and u are not happy
and having to bring in
"just becoz he is gay"
and say it out,
then i have nothing to say
becoz, i am not gay,
there is a difference

be it, if i were gay, bitch listen up here
there will be no link between our topic or yr blardy watermelon size boobs yr grams have and me being gay
and still wanting to talk to me after that and telling me yr blog add?
what for?
i dont plan to speak to scrums sluts whore heads like you anyway.
talking to witches like you will only degrade me and tarish my image
now run back into yr little *lock cock* hut and stare into yr orcale balls

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 11:40 PM| |

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to the one that I am talking about.
after yesterday night's confession and talk
I had my peaceful sleep
after everything that happened until now
i am able to tell you my feelings about the whole thing.
i dont care what happened already
i dont care what things were being said behind my back
to me, its all crap and shit now

u hated me for deleting and blocking you on msn
i was disappointed that u actually doubted me
i was disappointed the thought could even actually come to yr mind
i was disappointed that just becoz someone claim something behind my back,
there were people that actuall believed him and not come to ask me directly,
my trust and faith was lost after that happened
and i decided to go into hiding making it all disappear

but now, after that talk, we are clean
we, referring to only you and me
its unfair to you after all that has happened
and i am sorry it has to happened
i am sorry for deleting and blocking you
so thats why, we are still friends,

i dont know that happened to you and I
is the arrows all pointing to one person that could be the cause?
i felt used.
its not fair just because of the cause that we cannot be friends
i wont be that selfish anymore.
its time that everything will start from the beginning again
amen

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 10:57 AM| |

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:Sunday, October 23, 2005:

my dumb silly boy tried changing my blogskin
although he being a lousy blogger and totally sucked at html codes
hmmm..ha ha...
thanks dear,
he lefted me to edit and correct the rest of the codes to make it what is it now
and, my acct is being hacked!!

baby found out my password
hur hur -.-
thats fast lar..
ha ha
and i will change my blog song soon
and yes, i will give credit to that person who sends me songs
and being able to appear on my blog
that means we like the song

took like hrs to complete this blog,
slpt late last time >.<
was talking to yinyin..
hur hur...
not dear, dear slpin leh,
his china cannot make it
better go slp rather than make himself lao kue infront of his relatives
ha ha...

sundays a bore to me
getting bored sitting ard doing nothing now
cleaned my room this morning,
it was in a totally mess lar
like hurrican wilma slammed into my room
at least mother didnt complain much about my room
except that i think i want to change the flooring of my room
thats all..
ha ha..

i am ok! with my flu and stuffs
except that the googy substance living up my nose and turned green!
*yucks*
i was blowing my nose the whole time yesterday night
as thought i was giving birth through my nose
*darns*

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 3:47 PM| |

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:Saturday, October 22, 2005:

got back from JB at like 7+
the jam was horrendous...
did not do alot of shopping today hur,
its more of the food!
Glorious food~
*phew*

ha ha..been eating and eating the whole day
saving up for decemeber
will spend more there..
comfirm will
headache came back during the afternoon
damn, my whole mood changed
tried slpin in the car
but judging from the poorly made roads they have there in malaysia
i could have much except for closing my eyes.

was listening to Cant take that away by mariah
throughout the way in JB, the jam
and one person that was always appearing in my mind
hmm..going to walk down my Bohemian garden with you
*huggs*
i am yours
no one can tear us apart
hmmm...considering that i am yr first
*blah*
ha ha...no caring what they say
if they cant help but keep thinking about us,
its ok,
we will last

having to be with you and complaining about my troubles in school and stuffs
always bulling you with all the shits at sch
ha, now its yr turn on chinese hur,
you don't speak chinese much and yr relatives speak only chinese!
woah ha ha ha...
and yesh, i enjoyed my OCK curry puff
ha ha..

its unbelieveable how pple can make use of me so well
tryin to be friends and all
but actually wanting things from me
and after getting it,
i'm nothing more than trash.
and its also my blog
its ok for pple to come and view my blog and stuffs
but if u want to attack my blog,
come directly to me.

my blog, my writings, my songs
they are mine!
dont copy!
i see things seriously more clearly now
my writings and my songs
its not that i dont want to send my songs out
but, its me. my mood, my originality, myself and my life
no one copys my life.
i know you and you know who you are
i hope it ends here.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 8:20 PM| |

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:Friday, October 21, 2005:

left sch in a rush today
didnt want to stay long either

some people just don't know when to stop
calling others childish when they are no better
taking pple's personal stuffs and hiding them
is it me?
or is it just girls?

no one in PS0102 pissed me off to that extent
happening that this is only the 3rd week,
and u managed to do that already
*bravo*
doesnt mean that you cant find a bf to finger fuck you,
means that u can come a fark with me

UT ended late today,
rushed downtown to meet baby.
he was with joyce..
hmmm, i think that joyce was not happy for me making them wait so long
she bought my fav OCK curry puff
*thanks*
but hey, not my fault.
sch had extended hours today
dear wanted to get his addias sweater
went to hereen addias
and
*BOOM*

bumped into edison (not teo) and Jeremy
hmmm..something gng on between them?
ha ha..
*craps*
talked for awhile and dear had to rush off home
he has relatives from China over
i came to grams after that and joyce followed eddy..
no doubt that she likes eddy,
hur hur-.-
but he's gay!
ha ha..u can love him and not get hurt!

watched Deuce Bigalow European MAN WHORE!!
my friend has the test film
not looking forward to my weekends
my life is now nothing but staying online

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 6:50 PM| |

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:Thursday, October 20, 2005:

how lame can people actually get?
dropping to a standard that no others can go too.
dont they know the amount of damange that they can inflick
the trust to be lost

mayb its that i am not in a good mood to do anything right now
or that becoz its the darn flu
or that the bitch that is wasting my time in class
and then, comes this nonsense
wtf

thinking of playing games like this,
i almost said something abt myself that i am not supposed to say
until i am comfortable with the people.
what the shit..
imagine what that could have done
having to trust a person to tell that person certain stuffs that others will not know
having to know that bastard that i also know,
and the bitches that i also knows

hmm..its seems that no one can be trusted yet
and it seems that i should not be too open
having to see the tricks that they have up their sleeves
i do not know what is going on up in their mind,
but things are starting to get clearer to me

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 3:20 PM| |

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^likes and don't likes^

didnt slp to well last night
had nightmares, headaches and finally,
having to wake up 45mins later
was not late for class today

anna tan is freaky,
how can an old woman call my name more than 10 times in less the 1 hr!
i dont like her.

Benji dont like Anna Tan, she's freaky
Benji dont like desmond, he's freaky too
Benji dont like para para players
Benji dont like st8 guys that dresses like a gu niang, act macho but girlish.
Benji dont like being called ah seng
Benji dont like being sick
Benji dont like st8 bitchy and sluttish girls
Benji dont like plastics
Benji dont like balls
Benji dont like backstabbers
Benji dont like his Xs that treat him like shit
Benji dont like the internet in RP
Benji dont like passives
Benji dont like spiders
Benji dont like coconut
Benji dont like chinese posers

Benji likes his friends
Benji likes his crook AJ friends
Benji likes his room
Benji likes his classmates
Benji likes staring into the starry sky
Benji likes going to the movies
Benji likes being hugged
Benji likes to money money hom
Benji likes chilling
Benji likes malays and negros
Benji likes his piano and E.keyboard
Benji likes to blogg
Benji likes his blogg
Benji likes to cheong pool
Benji likes to cheong arcarde
Benji likes Royce Chocolate
Benji likes going tanning
Benji likes thai food
and lastly,
Benji loves his baby.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 10:57 AM| |

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:Wednesday, October 19, 2005:

received an sms
checked my phone and it states something like,
hey i may not be flying back today,
my dad's sick, he might be having a heart attack.
it was a msg from sean
think he is still in sydney.
hopes that everything is fine on his side.

came back home and slp today,
been rather tired of late
and since there will be charmed tonight,
i guess i wont be slpin early either.
listening to hero again,
hmmm, its like the song that is repeatin
everytime i look back at myself

my past relationships, life, cliques
secondary school life,
after meeting my sec sch mates,
they say that i've changed.
look different already..
hmmm...

superhyper, mayb its the flu..
wooho0~
tmr's anna tan's module
hope its not going to be borin.
been like playing NSF underground 2 during UT today
*opps*
ha ha...my faci came over and asked me this whole crap abt the NSF
she was interested sia~

many more things to come
dont dwell in my past
as there is a hero that lies in me.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 9:20 PM| |

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firstly, daryl baby, stop calling me a gay magnet
because i am so0 not.
although there might be like occasional stares
which happens so often today,
i think that they are just thinking bad of me.
ha ha..yups.

what with me and attracting them?
so what if i'm an open and yes,
they seeing me on the streets holding my baby's hand
and my baby hugigng me
wtf, your prob..
and i know who is AJ in RP.
trust me, i do.

then again, whats with my blog song?
mostly old songs and then becoming popular again?
my trademark is being invaded

cant blog much now,
the witch is back in class and we're late on time.
*money money home*

Best Buy!
Must Buy!
Dont Buy!
Go and die!
what a theme for today..

hur hur

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 2:50 PM| |

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:Tuesday, October 18, 2005:

*yawns*
slpt hours today.
been thinking what will happen to me after my NS
i know that i'll be going overseas most probably with my cousin,
if not i'll be going alone
been thinking of Canada
but my godfather encouraged the US in CA.
i think he studied in CA b4..

didnt think much about australia,
kind of over-crowded with immigrants already
not sure whether grams still wanna buy a house there
the bitch cousin in my family line will be going there next year
thank god that i will not see her any longer
mayb its just that family that my cousins and i dislike
the amount of disgust will always be there with the 'jap guy'

mother just told me that our flight departing on the 18th is confirm.
now its the returning that is giving us problem
either 25th (christmas) or 26th.
my aunt placed us on the TG and SQ ones
didnt hear much abt the TG ,
guessed will be going on SQ

emma was just talking to me abt travelling
ha, we shd all travel together,
sean, emma, fat kid, GH, roy and i
somewhere like bali
can go tanning and shop to shits
and when we are there,
the JI's will have to leave because
sean, emma and i will bitch them back
and their poor fat asses all have to run back home.
-sighs-
will it come?

*money money hom*

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 7:20 PM| |

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:Monday, October 17, 2005:

don't think that i will be going to school tmr
my pulppy eyes has evolved into a cold which mutated into a flu
runny nose and constant sneezing
*darns*

*money money hom*

cant stare at my lappy for too long
my eyes hurt alot now
did nothing much today, could be becoz of my laziness
plus the stupid cold...
sat around talk cock sing song play mahjong
and soon it was time to leave..
blah blah blah
*groans*
*moans*
*froans*

*money money hom*

my papers are this wed and friday
hope that i can do well in them
Benji wants big fat Ace for them
Benji wants Chucky Monkey Ben & Jerry's now
Benji wants Smarties now
*sighs*
whats with the cravings..
gosh i am pregnant

Whats with having the same phone and the same ringing tone as me?
damn u AJ in my class, for god's goodness sake, plz stop copyin everything of mine can
keep yr freaking hands to yr own table
o, and i don't think that he can fall in love with me lar
it is just not my type
ha ha..PANG RAY

*money money hom*

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 7:26 PM| |

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my tit's got pinched by doreen
groosssssssssssssssssss
ha ha..
ok, that was crappy.

my eyes are pulppy
its a monday, been in the cold classroom for almost 3 hrs
and freezing to my bones
my life is complete
well, accept for the absense of my 'family' now
its better that i am off on my own

been like yawning the whole day already
kinda miss the whole
'slping in my arms' days
ha ha
blogging in class to pass times
will be gng town during 2nd breakout
dont wanna stay here and rot to death

there is something abt crook pple which i dont understand
why talk abt me behind my back to some other pple saying that i am handsome and stuffs
and calling yrself man.
wtf.. and saying that u are afraid that other pple will know what u have said
only after u found out that someone is an open bi, then u wanna talk to that person abt crook stuffs?
i hate this kinda Ajs.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 10:48 AM| |

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:Sunday, October 16, 2005:

- domestic workers -

my trust for domestic workers have decreased sharply these few months
today something different happened regarding my aunt's maid
apparently, my baby cousin was at home slpin when my aunts' and uncles came over
my baby cuz woke up crying and the maid was no where to be found
she locked the room in which my cousin was in and went out.

my baby cuz woke up and started crying for 1/2 hr
and my granduncle tried opening the door but couldnt
so he called my uncle while we were having dinner
my aunt got angry and worried
they rushed home after dinner
that maid is so0 dead.
therefore, i dont really trust maids anymore

i just got into a quarrel with my sister, dad and mother
fUCK you u bitch whore, mother fucking cock sucking
sluts.
i am the black sheep of the family
so what
dont under estimate what things can come out from my mouth you fuCk bitch sister of mine
i will challenge u onto anything.
whorehead cock sucking father-fucker
you watch sia..
bring it on
i'm all ready
Benji is ready to fuck you back.

that a way to end a sunday
bitch fit

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 9:17 PM| |

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GX send me the pixs already
yea, so here are some of them









this is maode. enterprise faci cum ACBC faci
he has been like 'twisting' for the cam the whole night

kelvin, the birthday kid.



this is really stomach tickling lar..
thanks to GX for editting it..
wooho0~



the crappy mess that we made by sitting there for like 5 hours
having dinner.



*twisting* again~
sighs...maode..



was suppose to go to ikea with my sis today
but the weather was PMSing...
so, didnt go in the end
and i think that the rain was caused by my sis
her farking attitude is pissing me off
so what if its yr "time of the month"
who the fark says that u can take yr tampons out on me
shit bitch

o, no offence but i would like to make things clear..
in case that benji doesnt get the point of me doing this
ha ha
forget abt me, dont put hopes on me
to know that i will be yours
i dont think its appropriate
and now is not the time for me i guess..
instead, i think we shd just stay as
friends.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 1:33 PM| |

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:Saturday, October 15, 2005:

daryl's back..crappy sia
cock!! ha ha..
just got back from pasar malam at serangoon
daryl came to meet me there
the pasar malam was crappy
very crappy
not going to another one again
*shakes head*

doreen cant sing. talkin to her and jacy on fone
conference call..dotz dotz
ha ha
was wondering whether i shd password block my blog
dont want unwanted pple to come shit on my blog
and once again i will say this
i love my blog
ha ha..yups

tmr's gng be another day
slpy slpy

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 11:50 PM| |

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there is something wrong with cbox
my whole tagboard has disappeared for the whole day
crappy~
woke up damn late today
11+, just in time to get to grams.
didnt do much today..
slacked ard, i wanna play nsf underground 2!

was checkin through my grades and wells,
been Bs all the way to far
that witch gave me a B after grading my performance an A and my Rj a C
i think she saw me not paying attention in class...
*blah*
kill her!!

darryl is coming back tmr.
he'll gimme a call went he arrives
wahahah...
too bad..my outing days will be increased again.
sighs...
*looks at pocket*
sighs..
mother refused to gimme anymore
so i think i'll ask dad.

just got a new set of vcds that my godmother passed to me
i think its the one that rachel is watching
hmmm...
40 discs
can complete?
we shall see

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 5:39 PM| |

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just got back..wooho0~
look at the time..ha ha..
went to watch the wig after skool at cine...
almost the whole cinema was filled with kids, AJs and not st8 pple
ok..i have to say, it was shocking. not scary. shocking.
hmmm..there is a difference.

went to walk at taka after that and then we saw this excutive looking at me.
ha ha..my male bitch was like telling me that he is checkin me out
and i was like, i saw..shits..ha ha...crap lar..
i'm so0 attracting unwanted attention

went to meet dean and the rest after that
it was kelvin's b-day
celebrated it at some oo-loo bbq cum steamboat seafood restaurant
it was like 10 bucks a person and i think we ate more than 10 bucks
god, dont judge someone by what they eat ok..
was on the way back and GX took some crappy pics
ha ha..there is also a video..

will get it from him soon
and on the way back, serene asked me a question..
hmmm...
took me by surprise..
gave her the answer
but mayb not so soon
depends on me and the other party i guess

what the fark is it with my parents sia
i know that i used to go cheong and drink till late at night lar
but nowadays i dont
what is their farking problem with me
i was out celebrating my friend's b-day
and my cellphone will be ringing farking non-stop
chee bye lar u all
doesnt mean that you dont have a life,
u can take mine away
fark off and mind yr own business

my dad's like one blardy gu niang lar..
nagg and nagg
fark u lar
trust me lar...the next time i wont come home already sia.
come home already then say what
" i want to talk to you tmr "
fark u!
i answered
" not important dont talk "

my parents and i had a conve like this b4
and we settled it.
if they wanna bring it back up again,
benji is all ready to battle it out..
suckers.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 12:53 AM| |

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:Friday, October 14, 2005:

looking that they day couldnt go any worst,
it has just did
wth! seems like i am seriously getting more vulgar nowadays..
ha ha..
how can i be in this team?
that witch will be the death of me sia..
dont like her nia...then she have to do this to me
biatch man..

my dad send me this crap..the words are kinda small
but try reading it anyway
its just so singaporean
waiting for my breakout time
this witch seriously likes talking cock
darns~

sean was online yesterday
talked abit but was kinda like slpy
slpt early...darryl babe is coming back on sunday
sure to be meeting soon
heard he has found a boyfriend!!
wahahah...

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 9:31 AM| |

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:Thursday, October 13, 2005:

i feel happy. i feel changed.
i just feel more crappy than usuall.
doreen's influenced. ha ha
its the laughter and crappiness that makes me feel changed.
i'm happy now, really, i am

getting soaked in my new ecstasy,
on the bus, in class, at home and in the toilet
Lush 99.5
my new dark ecstasy
its so much better listening to it now

not been paying attention in class to0
*shits*
UT is next wed for G102.
been msn-ing, listening to mp3s and my new ecstasy
playing msn games,
reading through my frenz blogs
disappearing from class 1/2way through presentations

if you were to come across this psychotic rich tai tai wanna be called Anna Tan
BEWARE: STAY AWAY
she talks the most cock in class
even more than shawn
*slaps head*
tmr is the witchy bitchy Nat Goh.
hopes that she releases me early tmr

my blog song: For all time - Soluna
the lyrics and tune is catching and refreshing
thats why i liked it the way it is
this song has always brought back memories to me and my cousins.
i used this song as one of the songs during the picture presentation which i worked my po0r baby ass off...
well other than it reminds me of my X
*blah*
whats over is over
i am changed ha ha..w00hoo0~

the excitement of going to class each day does not depend on the module or the faci,
now, it depends on me and my peeps
i feel happy, forget the past.
dont disciminate
accept us for who we are and not what we are
after all, we are also here to stay right?

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 9:40 PM| |

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:Wednesday, October 12, 2005:

*something bad*

i did something bad today. something that i will not usually do.
okies...here goes..*laughs*
doreen, jacy and i went to canteen to grab some food
so happened that then sambal mee tai mak is sold out,
we went to eat western and doreen bought chicken cutlet for us.
we ordered a take away and wanted to eat at cafe as it is nearer to class

then the damn chor lor auntie said that there wasnt anymore plastic knifes.
wth! how are we suppose to cut the chicken without a knife?
ha ha..so the quick thinking skills of blk B's devils flooded our minds.
i didnt expect myself to do such things lar..well, not since PS0102.
while the auntie was distracted with the other and getting food prepared,

doreen and i took 3 metal knifes!
wooho00~ and plastic folk and hid them in my pocket
ha ha..we brought the knifes to cafe..
wth right..
ha ha...
her food is getting worst anyway.

another thing, my blog is getting more and more popular
wonder who is actually viewing my blog..
hmmm...
*ponders*
o and da jie, that mandroid that has the cross,
is that new villian in the up-coming X-men 3!!
remember the X-men logo?
yups..

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 9:17 PM| |

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:Tuesday, October 11, 2005:

hmmm..seems that my blog is not the only one receiving verbal diarrohea
and i know who the culprit is.
Apparently that asshole went to shit on da jie's blog too
She changed her blog..i'm not linking her now for the obvious reasons
what a low-life loser..
Yup, its in the above.
That's the shit oxymoron.

Watched corpse bride today cineleisure with Jj
its nice...somewhat looks like an orchestra to me
ha ha..
went to ikea to meet da jie, sao sao and fabian.
think Jj's was bored..
*blah*


sinful delight...
yummies..ha ha..
went to hagen dais to ate ice-kream..



Fabian and i

da jie and sao sao says that i look very toot now lar
like no havoc already..
ha ha...its like i got in touch with my nerdy-self
sighs...
benji-benji

lovin couplez...

dao sao and da jie

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 10:30 PM| |

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woke up late this morning..
*grums*
my sis was still in the bathroom and..
my room seriously seems messy
*argh!*
nothing has changed since kenneth left
ha ha...still as messy as yet...

this bed has alot of memories..ha ha
buah~no lar..its CLEAN!
read CLEAN!

my crappy table which used to be covered in The Year Series

CDs cannot be compared to my sis

my new ikea light...ha ha...





the black thing on the right is my piano!
it occupied like so much space in my room.


sighs..meeting da jie laters
kinda like shit now
slackin in class till can die lar
didnt do much today..
its time to do drink again
and there is totally no mood to blogg..

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 11:30 AM| |

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:Monday, October 10, 2005:

got some pics up.. nothing much..norm and stuffs
felt kinda bored now so,
hmmm..blog b4 i slp?






went to chill in town with PS0102 peeps,
got my shoes from zara~
*finally*
its SDG$119.
thought it was kinda ok for a part of shoes
but my parents claim that it is Xpensive
like hello!? my addias cost more than this lar
and this is zara for heaven's sake
*points middle finger*
ha ha..




class today was rather boring..
organic chem...sighs..wat's next!?
bio again!? bio suxs big time lar..
tmr is A112 ..darn..hopes its easy
*lazy*

its okay for people to come by my blog and tag it
but if you got yr shit comments,
do not shit over my blog.
verbal diarrohea.
i dont have to care abt what others say
wells, as long as i am happy then..
ha ha...
*satisfied look*

these are the lastest pics from charmed.
Holly Marie Combs is awesome lar..
ha..and her hair looks P-U-R-P-L-E!

*charmed airs every wednesday at 10pm*

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 9:30 PM| |

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whatsS wrong with purple?!
ha ha..great,
the purple lil' gay boy..
hur hur..
thanks ah doreen yea! and emily~ *blah* blog abt you..
thickskin *pulls hair*
thanks to u having everything on the table in purple
and drawing using purple ink on my hand.
wooho0~

been listening to The Anthem by Good Charlotte the whole day in class
ha...super hyper lar..
will be going to get my zara shoes later!
hoo0~can't wait
its going to be darn sexy.. ha ha..
meeting PS0102 peeps laters

up next on my desire list..
the ipod nano!!


i am more hardworking today
hmm...did the powerpoint slides
and yesh!
even since sch started
hmmm..baddy..
ha..effort put in!

o and sean, yea..the gay one in thailand,
doesnt mean that u are deprived of gay love,
you can destory mine
no life.
try checking out V nation. its in bangkok.

Benji

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:Sunday, October 09, 2005:

purple hair..yep..its done..
ha ha...although there are people in my family that sort of reject to it.
well, i don't give a shits to yr comments or tots
this is my hair and my style.
mind your own business.

went to ikea with my cuz and bought my bedside lamp.
cost me like 23 bucks.
its ok i guess. not sure whether i'll be shifting hse already
fark the weather is darn hot.
hope to get a tan next sunday if i go swimming with my sister.

my grams made this ginseng chicken thingy yesterday night and she wanted me to drink it,
hmmm...regretted.
stomach upset with that soup..
ha ha...
shd be able to meet benji in town on friday
thats if my class ends early again.
hope that witchy nat will release me early and not boil me in soup.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 4:05 PM| |

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:Saturday, October 08, 2005:

something that a father will do for his daughter but not for his son
just a simple request but he takes it like he will die doing it or something
this goes, i have not been taking to my dad for the whole day already
if there is nothing important to talk to him abt,
i wont even open my mouth to him.

now, a relative also my uncle and also my godfather
1. He is darn rich.
2. He is darn stingy.
3. He is darn pathetic.
4. Everyone else can get into trouble except him. He is the best.
5. He loves himself to much.
6. He loves using sticks to hit the ground, known as Golf aka modern day witchcraft.
7. He thinks he's a pro but coming to facts, he's shits.
8. Money is his life. If he can don't pay, he won't.
9. I call him Kiam Ka-na for the obvious reasons.
10. I don't like him much.

I dont talk much to this person either. Well although i see him every week, if it's nothing important, i won't talk to him. i'm not happy with him now becoz of what he said. everything abt him is oxymoron.

got my hair dyed purple today.
hope its turns out right
*prays*
ha ha..
been slpin the whole day today.
after all, its saturday...chill and slack day
was talking to daryl and he was saying something that really shock me lar
kao~, didnt expect that to come from him.
ha ha*blah*
sorries baby..
cannot be at the airport on that night
reason: sunday. at my grams

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 9:15 PM| |

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:Friday, October 07, 2005:

Nat released us from her malevolent claws!
nat happens to be my faci for G104 CA aka the witch
finished class at like 3pm and waited for the rest
my grades are pleasing good
ha..dont have to worry much now like i used to in sec sch.

met sean at like 4.
left sckool with zizi's
chilled along the way till town
ha ha..
went to zara(s) all around town
was like paris hilton shopping with sean
walking into undoubtly high class boutiques
A/X has great clothes,
Zara's coats are eye catching nei
topman clothes...er...2nd thoughts already 50% sale...what the crap!

had "the 'G' spot" at BigO.
fattening choco cake with cold choco
then!
*haunting noise*
harrold lim and nigel apperated in
omg, nigel is soo0 tall lar
from a short midget tweet to my height...
*bows*

and yesh...the ipod 2GB nano is $300+
jacy was right..ha ha..
got my purple dye
hell like finally
amen to monday for the lil gay boy in purple~~
ha ha..
i'm feelin so darn luved..

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 9:44 PM| |

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going town laters with sean
not sure whether the rest is coming
kinda feeling myself again
now that i chose not to fall into it anymore

and thanks to zizi,
ha..she announced alot of things hur...
benji the gay boy..
dont have to tell the world lar!
you nimrodic imbecile.

my faci for G104 Culture looks like a witch
dean and i got the same faci
jamie likes her
rach and i dont fancy her much.

anyone who like anna sui~
got visit emily's blog
(its at the bottom left corner)
*points down*
ha ha...darn,
can't wait for daryl to get back.

have to take damn good care of my hair from now on
its like i've been dye-ing it alot lately.
purple hair~ next on list.
suay suay..
met that oxymoron just now at canteen
omg, what the shit did he do to his hair?
its so *pukes*
its either that or that the stylist is so0 not professional.

*hints*
I'm not gay zizi...incase some people cannot take jokes

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 1:24 PM| |

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:Thursday, October 06, 2005:

ok, i do like paris hilton and nicole richie
but they're on bad terms now.
ha! a simple life season 4 is in the making.
rumours has that the season will be on marriage.
WHY is the media trying to sell off the best topics of the century?
stay single bitches!



After looking at the pic, then u think, does nicole know how to eat, suck, bite, lick, whateva with the ice-cream?
its seems to be melting under the summer sun!


hmmm...paris does her own shopping!
nice blue outfit rather than the all revealing ones.
Goddess of the Fucking Galaxy.
ha..bring it on paris.


and once again, doesnt her pose ever change??
well, at least the dress does..


Eva Longoria’s appearance at the Video Music Awards!
felt that her gown at the Emmy's was nicer.


and yes! Lindsay Lohan's gorgeous black shiny Mercedez Benz SL65!


apparently, she wanted to challenge britney by having 2 accidents in a year.
god! using one of god's best created cars!?


even tolled away! god it look like scrap now.
*blah*

and yes, thanks to Jia Ling for the webbie.
dont these rather crappy
still missing much of agent smith.



he could get his face back after laughing shits to the orcale.
she had him injected with 4 times the amount of botox
and with its adverse and instant effects
*BOOM*
it got stuck.
imagine having to leave your mouth open for the rest of your life


sea games should have a new event called
rush to the toilet after a bladder effects race.
if only it was urine that was raining down
ewww..

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 8:17 PM| |

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