:Saturday, June 30, 2007:

I woke up today with this sharp pain at my top left side jaw.
I was so difficult to eat or even do anything and so I got
really cranky. Somethings happened in the morning which
got me really disappointed. Shan't elaborate further cause
I don't want to. I was out with Elder today and although we
were almost bored to death, we talked about alot of things.

Things that were around us. Things that form and change
people. Things that could cause a person's downfall and rise
another. Things that weren't even their business but they
want to bother. Gawd, when will they actually wake up
to see that people are all the same, and they only get judge
by what they do and that personality reflects name.

Everybody talks bad about somebody else, never realizing
how it affects somebody else. And you bet it won't be forgotten
but envy is the only thing it could be.

The beginning of the disappearing act has started.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 10:31 PM| |

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:Thursday, June 28, 2007:

Sitting with a friend on the 26th floor rooftop could have
never been even more emotional. With 23 playing on my
Ipod, I've been thinking yet again. I feel intoxicated. Looking
into the night's sky, pondering whats going to happen
to me if I were to carry on my life the way it seems.
No it isn't looking very bright at the moment.

Life is going to catch up with me and bang me on the
head saying "you're out". The cool night's breeze caressed
my cheeks and I sat there, feeling so alone. so alone.
It felt great. I wanted to cry. I don't know why.
Life has been too rough now I don't see the good things
in it anymore.

With so many things happening around me, we never stop
to see how much people put in just to get into one's good side
even to the extreme of killing one another. We've been
blinded by the lust and greeds of what we want till we don't
bother who friends are or are not anymore. I want to be free.
I want to be free. Before everything catches up with me
and I'll loose my breath before everything goes blank.

I wanna walk the beaches at night with my elder just
talking about everything under the sky and shouting out
loud just to get everything out of my mind.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 10:40 PM| |

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:Wednesday, June 27, 2007:

Interviews and Auditions for new position as QUEEN and
Sister. Come to impress for there is a VACANCY for a new
QUEEN to reign.

It's time for the old to step down and a new QUEEN to
reign.

New QUEEN new Sister. Come for interview on friday
at Cineleisure.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 12:45 PM| |

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:Monday, June 25, 2007:

Sunday could have never been even more fun. Well at least
it's better than the usual intoxication with political fighting
with me trying to raise above the rest just grasping for
fresh air. With the people at Sentosa; it was fun.

Wells, at least its something for a change which I felt was
something better to do. Tan-ing, and just chilling in the waters
and of course the next time at del ma. Not forgetting the
closed door conventions I had with a few of them just talking
about the problems and my feelings about the people around
me.

Plannings for next week in already in the process. Away from
the toxic air which I need to clear myself from. The tiredness
and frail self trying to stand up.

Talking about everything under then sun and also looking at
everything under the sun. *smiles*
Sentosa; the island of eye feasting. Esp with mingyang around.
I should change my perception of mingyang. ha.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 1:13 PM| |

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:Monday, June 18, 2007:

Play could not be described on Saturday. The crowd was great,
the people were great, everything about it was awesome.
And there was this bitch faghag that was frenching all the
gays around her. EEewwwww.

Kor was there. Wallace and friend. Diva's birthday. Loads of
booty popping from destination calabria. lols,
From sweets dreams are made of these to fashionista.
Everything was perfect.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 10:09 AM| |

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:Wednesday, June 13, 2007:

Aye, I hate Flash *pouts*

After doing fyp for the afternoon, I decided to get my
ass out of the house with my mum and went trained
down to PS. Mother bought me a pair of jeans that's
gorgeous! And I got myself into the special invite listings
of FOX clothes. YAY! That means that I'll be able to
get new clothes before they're on the shelves.

I haven been cleaning my room lately since my eye for
bumped with infection and fyp-ing staring at my laptop.
I'll let the peektures do the talking for my room.

messyy room! grahhh.


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and then, there was!

*beams* HAHAHA.



I'm happy now.
Back to fyp. chao.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 11:20 PM| |

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:Tuesday, June 12, 2007:

Fashionista, Never Again, Since you been gone,
you + your hand and Same script different cast.

I miss chilling out with my people with music
in the faded background.
With the least of my worries at the back of my
head, I know it will be kind of difficult. But who
care, I need a well deserved break. =)

Play on Saturday. Happy Birthday Diva in advance
=)

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 12:50 PM| |

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:Sunday, June 10, 2007:

So after hours and hours of watching Janice Dickinsons
on Youtube. I finally got bored and I was feeling bitchy
the way she has been.
I swear, Janice Dickinsons Modeling Agency is a natural
gay show. Everything about her is so gay. lol.



I've been walking the streets of Orchard Road the past
2 days feeling rather different. I've managed to come
to be myself removing the plastic covering on the outside.
Away from that wretched building and away from that
life everyone wants to have and wants to be in.

Fact stated and fact made, once in everyone's life, they
want to be in the limelight. But whether is it sustainable
or not, is totally a different story. I've managed to see that
relationships are nothing but a mere status of caring
for one another in a domestic partnership.

Having being in a failure relationship which took me for a
hell of an emotional roller coaster which totally changed
me, having realized it now from the people that are closest
to me that its not worth it. Boyfriends will be boyfriends
and friends will be friends.

But the people that stick to you in times of needs are actually
not boyfriends. Its the later.

But I can't help but feel one thing.
Ultimately, he's Gucci and I am target.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 9:35 AM| |

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:Friday, June 08, 2007:

I want to go shopping.
shit.


Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 12:37 PM| |

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:Sunday, June 03, 2007:

People tend to put the blame on the world rather
than reflect about their actions before they speak.

Gosh, it's killing me how many stupid people God
is trying to put around me these days. The first
incident happened today when I was out with my
dearest Imran, Ames, Winson and a friend.
I swear I wanna throw away my cellphone.

*snaps fingers* WakeUP Miss Blame-it-on-the-world.

People don't just talk behind your back for no reason.
It's because of the things you have done.
And if you've heard alot of things,
thats cause you didn't only do one thing. You did so
many other things. Ask your actions and ask your
heart.
I can't stop people from what they want to say about you.

I'm respecting you by not naming names here.
Cause I am not you. Get to know Benji.


Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 11:25 PM| |

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