:Tuesday, May 31, 2005:
LeAve mE aLonE.
back in VB class...been a rough day so far. i mean, the problem and everything..aint that simple as it seems already huh... i think i'll fail my UT for A111-Visual Basics..haha...sorry lahz facci, not my fault lahz...its ur UT that is so damn difficult.
Juz finish Breakfast cum Lunch with my peeps in some shitty place called RP canteen. haha...the food there seriously needs some improving man...okok, Jamie and i were toking and we came across a topic on this 'someone' in RP, damn that's gross juz toking abt it. I mean guys won't say such thing about another guy man... well, unless he is gay or something.. i mean, its damn gross lahz...i dunno whether to say it out here or not becoz he noes abt my blog too.
wah lau, when jamie told me that, i felt that really like punching someone sia. wat the fark. well, if i cant say it to yr face, i'll say it here.
Stop it...enough is enough.
I dunn need to tell u anything.
stop demanding.
When the time comes, it will come.
Why are u so alonely.
everyone can see that frm u.
Wats this thing with u.
Stop pal -ling here and bro- ing there.
No one demands and ask to be a bro or a pal.
this things come naturally,
when someone is comfortable ard u.
i have many bros and sistas,
this means that i'm comfortable with them..
This means that i can tell them things.
Friendship is made over a period of time.
It is not made overnight.
Friends yes, anyone can have friends.
But friends that i can tell things too and talk about things,
i dunn u r there yet.
It maybe the age gap.
i don't know.
With all those msg-es
and calls.
and msn..
and friendster.
dunn gimme that crap abt 'O he reli hurt my feelings'
That sounds gay.
Or shall i say
it is gay.
so stop it.
When i say i wanna be alone,
means i wanna be alone.
so stop asking me things.
If i dunn reply,
that means i dunn wanna tok.
so STOP watever the shit to msg me.
This is me.
So if u dunno me,
stop acting like u noe me.
I had enough.
I hate pool
i hate bowling.
i hate going out.
Stop asking me to go out with u...
plz stop bro-ing ard..
Stop asking 'am i yr bro'
i'm sick of thinking abt it anymore..
i dunn go to bangkok.
u can ask someone else.
y do u only ask me and not the rest of the people in the class.
Stop looking at me like that.
i have nothing to say to u anymore.
i'm speechless after what u said to jamie.
scram.
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:Saturday, May 28, 2005:
a Life of a troubled.
Coming to tink about wat happened yesterday...haha..
wat an awesome day
i think that zizi was the only poor one.
all of us were like hanging and chilling in town.
haha...and i really mean the WHOLE class of PS0102
except allan that is.
when walking,
talking,
laughing,
then there was this irritating ass that kept msg me that i had to off my fone.
then when to chill at lucky plaza
to pool.
was an awesome day..
anyway, as long as there is the X in town, life will not be as good as ever.
and that is
TRUE.
i will wanna chill in town almost everyday from now on.
but, the hols are coming.
and its 20 more days b4 i'll depart from this place
and b back b4 sch opens.
this will be the last week for sem 1.
damn its fast,
with the ups and downs in class,
with fren that has left us,
and our class is down to 22 people.
wat the shit...
its difficult to have a full 5 groups now already.
anyway, juz asking ok,
does shaking of yr legs help to circulate blood?
i think it does rite?
now that i'm the used,
i feel so much more free.
i dunn have anymore strings attacted.
have u ever heard of a one sided love?
to me,
er..
haha
i think that PS0102 noes..
of 2 people that i know.
cant reli make it that observe u noe peeps.
all me bros and sistas in that class..
but with some aunties..
esp the picinc lover...
love u peeps.
but apperently, to me
frenz indeed dunn last forever.
they then to have new clicks
and dump the past
this is what i'm afraid in people.
i do not want to be a people person.
i wanna me a normal person.
plz dunn recongize me.
esp in town.
i dunn wanna meet u in taka KiNo.
i dunn wanna meet u anywhere in singapore
except at RP.
thats it.
enough is enough
i had enough
i'm sick and tired of running.
yr name made me mis-cue yesterday at pool.
thks to desmond sia..
bastard..
ahah.
so plz, stay away from me.
i dunn appreciate knowing u anymore.
stay far far away.
i noe magick.
i can curse.
i can hex.
dunn mess with somehting that u dun noe.
and that is me.
i dislike u.
u r not my bro
u r not my sista
nor my fren too.
nor my pal too.
nor anymore i've seen..
i hate u
i hate u
fark off
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:Thursday, May 26, 2005:
My Chemical Romance has ended and i'm now The Used.
Blue and Yellow Lyrics.
Love the back meaning.
And it's all in how you mix the two
And it starts just where the light exists
It's a feeling that you cannot miss
And it burns a hole
Through everyone that feels it
Well your never gonna find it
If your looking for it
Won't come your way
Well you'll never find it
If your looking for it
Should've done something but I've done it enough
By the way your hands were shaking
Rather waste some time with you
And you never would have though in the end
How amazing it feels just to live again
It's a feeling that you cannot miss
It burns a hole through everyone that feels it
Should've said something but I've said it enough
By the way my words were faded
Rather waste some time with you
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And YeT itS anoTher day.
Today was a rather nice day to wake up exxept to be finding someone else on the same bed as u. wat the shit. ok anyway, i;m not gng to tok abt it here..
ok...ok...ok! I'LL START! it was raining today. the end! haha..nahz..okok...
It rained today which caused me to be late for UT and for class. I was already at the bus stop outside Redhill at 8 am this morning. as it was raining i had to take a bus. and the only bus that i could take is 132. that farking bus too so farking long to come and btw i reach class was 9. wat the shit.i hate it. and i hate dean's guts..haha...read it dean...i H-A-T-E yr guts ....thks to rach..
well. toking abt rach...lol..today she once again nv fails to hit her shoulder against the aircon control unit. only this time she managed to hit the other side of the shoulder. haha...to balance it out.. each time u hear 'ouch', juz turn yr head and look at the door or scan yr eye balls for this rachy rach and then the next thing u need to do is juz laugh...haha...and jamie...jamie...
toking abt jamie...wat the hell did u do to yr hair?? i mean its nice k, happy? and now yr not auntie anymore!! tai tai is better...dunn be sad..its a upgrade with a downgrade at the same time...haha.. and the curls? their nice...nice...nice...nice...nice...nice...
and serene...coming to serene...she owes me a movie...echo..nv go back to collect yr cert today go run to campuspoint to slack. haha....
and farhana!...u juz love to listen the the uncle farker song rite...uncle farkeeerrrrrRRR...haha...
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When back to stgabs today...saw bon's face...farking face. hate it...lolz...no lahz...went back to collect my O cert. The cert is in a terrible state...Those people who work in printing and laminating the cert ought to be fired..wat a terrible job done..wat a disgrace man...i juz really feel like showing the cert to the people in cambridge and let them decide...shit heads.
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:Wednesday, May 25, 2005:
wAt a BorINg dAY!
Today is the far most boring day in RP so far...yahz...everyone agrees...hai~ today's problem is also the far most boring problem too...haiz!
today Gurion started his 1st day in NP...lolz...wat a sch...RP RP RP! saw the GURU juz now...shit...bad luck from now on..haha...wah kaoZ...then today the fac is a filipino...haha...tok until so xin ku...hai~...haha..but i juz adore them~!....they are so roxS~..haha...
today had shalini, hanisha, diana and gui xiang in my group....wat a group...like played jedi outcast and mahjong...the slack throughtout...haha...haiz...haiz~...damn sad...
later muz go to library for some student council thing...didnt wanna go becoz i'll be alone but then, i found out the serene was also in this student council thingy...haha...but she also say dunno whether she wanna go not...dunno y tat everyone is so tired today...haha..
even ZIZI also abit mad already...her hair is messed in a way that she juz finish having sex...lmoa....haha...jamie is super slow today...haha...haiz~ wat happened to everyone today...everyone is not functioning properly today....haiz
and today rachy rach is back from bangkok...haha...all she got for us was some lousy gum...haha...no lahz...chills rachy rach...i watched starwars already!!? haha....i'm first in the class sia!..rachy bought me this utra cool game console, a shirt, a PSP and gum...haha...
make sure that when i go to korea i'll be some shit back for u...
and its 24 more days!!!!!! haha...and next week is hols already...thk god...i cant wait for the hols to come...wat the shit sia...haha...its like i also haven go back to stgabs to collect my O level cert...but i also dunn wanna see the OMs...fucking ass licker...i think that they are the best ass sucking pigs i've seen in my life...haha
o, and i'm toking to dominic already ok...and i noe that he is very concern to noe abt me and the loml...but well, cannot tell u ok...sercret sia...haha...cannot like that lahz...if u wanna noe then one day have lunch or something...and chill...after all...my time on earth has been limited...hai~
and once again...a sith i muz be...for i'm a sith LORD!!!!...i will purge purge!!!! and kill the jedi weakling by the name of Rachy rach...mnuahahaha...i will be the most powerful sith lord to walk this earth!!...
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:Monday, May 23, 2005:
WaT thE sHIttY dAY!
today early morning woke up rush to jennie yiyi hse at park green to swimming...haiz~..
swim half way then that bitch samantha call me say wanna meet in town...told her we not steady anymore then still wanna meet...helo bitch...who u think u r sia...u dunn own me already...doesnt mean that when u r back frm the states yr a 'A' class gal...in me, yr A "F" class whore!?
Y do i have to meet two pplz that i hate today....arh!!!!!!!! 1st is sam then is ah HENG! wat the shit................................................... Y am i so unlucky!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i hate myself sia...y the fucking hell my life have to be like the OC! sobsobs....dear, i need u...come back to me.
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:Wednesday, May 18, 2005:
Singaporeans are so rude
sometimes i wonder y singaporeans have no basic manners at all.. they are so barbaric..the old man barbaric men in singapore is damn pathetic...and the old women too...plz have some manner sia...if u want us young pplz to respect you, u damn well, ought to show us some too rite...damn SOBs and DOBs...like the 2pid man at redhill mrt station today..how the fucking hell he dare to shout at me like that...that is so rude! and barbaric...wat the shit..and that old auntie in the mrt...plz lahz...god or whatever yr god is, made u with a mouth lahz CB! use it ok...dunn push here push there...u damn lucky i give u face nv push u back only sia.. KNN, come here to kao pei on my blogg somemore...haha...lol..anyway, now i juz finish UT and there is some crappy problem..and now they say that we have to redo the whole entire UT muz redo!...wat the shit...that means must stay back on of these days...hai yo~! y so like that.. there are some prob and now its our prob too..haha...yesterday also UT got prob then also have to redo i think...haha...so lucky for all the 1st years whom are doing UT now...lolz.. O crapy...i juz redone my UT...it seems that everything is the same as the 1st one...haha...
i juz heard that ZIZi is having a problem...and jamie too!!...S-L-O-W sia...haha...hai~!...i mean the IT-helpdesk in RP juz suxs...during normal days they are "so busy" then during UT then they come and kan chong...that time juz beocz of VB, i had to spent the whole entire day there juz to install it and in the end, i still dunn have VB. until desmond freaking had to burn the VB installation into a disx sia...wat the shit.... and today, i have casper in my team...bless me... its like another month be4 i can fly off to korea...so damn looking forward to that lahz...today is like the 17th may 2005...mummy will be coming back from china on friday!! finally i dunn have to be abused by my witching sister.. It is still so long b4 the hols come for RP students...i hope that i dunn have to come back during the holidays... I still got like 3 weeks be4 sch closes... and u noe wat!! daryl ang msg me liAOzZ sia... claiming that he lost his fone and that we juz got hold of my number... then that faithful night, he msg me...and how he uses MSN... like fiinally...lmaoz...take took long daryl... he wanted to meet during the holidays but since i end sch 1 week later then them and he has most prob got to go back to cj most of the time, and i'll be flying off to korea on the 17th, erm...we have very limited days to meet...
and i also juz realized that kylie minogue has breast cancer!!! oh no....shit sia...her concert in singapore will be push back or cancelled...it was suppose to be on the 17th...the day i fly off... and i wanna watch her concert but i think now, cannot liaoz lahz... then that doo doo head rachel in class say so loud that she will be flying to BKK on frida ay 4 and she will be taking SQ!! i hope her flight delays!!>....keep suan-ing me becoz i taking KE which is korean airlines.... Rachel, i wan my mango sticky rice ok... i demand it sia... haha... finally,
signing out now.
Benji
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:Friday, May 13, 2005:
u DoO dO0 hEad
Rachel is a doo doo head..
Rachel is a doo doo head...
Rachel is a doo doo head....
Rachel is a doo doo head.....
Rachel is a doo doo head......
Rachel is a doo doo head.......
Rachel is a doo doo head........
Rachel is a doo doo head..........
Rachel is a doo doo head...........
Rachel is a doo doo head.............
Rachel is a doo doo head...............
Big New!!
Come get yr big news!!
article of the week!!!
Rachel from PS0102 is a doo doo head!!
haha...
anyway, hi peeps...sorry for not blogging lately...
i have been like damn siao busy and sick...
Well, i'm happy to say that i'll be gng to korea in june...finally...
17june...1 more month...
a very long wait that is...
very
very long wait...
and rachel, if u r reading this,
u r a doo doo head...
haha...
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:Saturday, May 07, 2005:
You cant have me anymore..
To you out there.
After reading my blog from yesterday.
The answer is.
No.
You can't have me anymore.
Its someone elses turn to have me.
You call it love.
I call it abuse.
And now that you are back.
You also want me back.
And for that.
My answer is.
No.
I can't go back to that life anymore.
You are desperate.
You need help.
You desperately need help.
You can't ask me for help.
I can't help you.
I can't be with you.
You need someone else.
And that someone else is not me.
After the 1000 stars have fallen.
Its time for you and I to end.
And that time has finally come.
To and end.
Well, thats the end of the everlasting story.
Today went out with Rach, Farhana, the 2 hisyams.
Thanks to dean who is a runner.
Run damn fast.
Then complain online that he is tired.
What the shit.
And whats with so many people reading my blog.
Think what.
Newspaper article is it.
Haha.
Kidding.
Well.
At least people bother to read.
Thanks peeps.
Going out with my peeps and bros.
Have to go chill.
Pool is a must.
Missed the party at Liquid Room.
Damn sad.
Hope they didnt miss me.
I love Liquid Room.
Liquid Room roxs.
Movie suxs.
Jamie called the wrong number.
She didnt call dean.
She called someone else.
Thats so lucky.
And that's the end.
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:Friday, May 06, 2005:
Its not getting any easier..
life is hard.
its difficult to pass time.
its tiring.
Its difficult to prove yrself in society.
Its easy trying to get accused and bad mouth.
Its easy to get into trouble and not easy to get out of.
Its easy to get drunk but not easy to forget the things that happened the day before.
Its easy saying things but not doing them or carrying it out.
Its easy to forget things but not the things tat pplz do against you.
Its easy to make friends but not easy to forgive them.
Its easy to say its ok but actually its not.
Its easy to hide things but does it really go away?
Its easy to make pplz happy with a smile but are you happy?
Its easy telling pplz what to do but what are u gng to tell yrself to do?
Its easy saying and doing alot of things but actually we dunn mean what we say or we do.
Its easy trying to get the most fuck out of things but when u realize it, yr wrong.
Its easy to say things that are not true and some how get away with lying.
If you think its fucking easy to write all these shit then u r fucking wrong. If not i'm fucking wrong.
I hate this life.
Its a torture, although life is a gift frm god.
This is me.
And my life isnt tat actually perfect.
I have a past.
Which people dont see.
Its ok not toking abt it.
But it will stay with me for the rest of my life.
Its hard at first.
But its common now and i juz shut up.
People like me.
But i hate myself.
What i protrait isn't what it seems to be.
I'm different.
From the rest.
Some might say its a gift.
I say its a curse.
But it will remain with me forever.
Rich isn't the word to use.
Happy is the word i'm looking for.
Who can give that to me.
Will be my one and only true love.
But for now.
I'm still blinded.
Blinded by hate, Greed, Lust.
I'm easily pushed.
I have weakened.
I ain't that superman u use to know.
I'm just a low life trying to pass the day trying to feel happy.
Plz dunn cry my love.
Its not yr fault.
Its mine.
For all the time we have spent.
Will not go to waste.
But will be kept in the small soft delicate organ called the heart.
And that heart will be shared between you and me.
But since we have parted over vast distances.
Its impossible to be together.
But all the times we had.
Will not be forgotten.
Money is not the only important thing in life.
Being materialistic is not as important anymore.
And I want the world to know that i owe it to you.
But now since we have parted.
I cannot go back to the ways we used to be.
We cant be togther anymore.
I'm sorry.
I truly am.
Things will not be the same anymore.
I cant accept you as mine.
There are others out there for you.
And to leave my final say for you.
I will not forget you.
Truely.
Madly.
Deeply.
Forever.
I have to move on.
I have to lead my life.
And not to accomidate mine to yrs.
U cant use me anymore.
And i think its someone elses turn.
She will be out there.
When the time is right.
We will meet.
And a new life will begin for me and her.
That is the ending for a everlasting story.
The End
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:Thursday, May 05, 2005:
I Don't Wanna Know
I don't need to be anything other than a prison guard's son
I don't need to be anything other than a specialist's son
I don't have to be anyone other than a birth of two souls in one
Part of where I'm going is knowing where I'm coming from
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I'm surrounded by liars everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by imposters everywhere I turn
I'm surrounded by a deadly crisis everywhere I turn
Am I the only one to notice?
I can't be the only one who's learned
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think about me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I gotta do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
Can I have everyone's attention pleaseSee, not like this and that
You're gonna have to leaveI came from the mountain, the crust of creation
My whole situation made from clay, dust, stone
And now I'm telling everybody
I don't want to be anything other than what I've been trying to be lately
All I have to do is think of me and I have peace of mind
I'm tired of looking 'round rooms wondering what I'm trying to do
Or who I'm supposed to be
I don't want to be anything other than me
I don't want to be
I don't want to be
I don't want to be
I don't want to be
Today reli sucked...i had a misunderstanding with this girl from my class in poly...well, now she hates everyone in RP. becoz she finds that we pang sei her becoz we keep changing our mind. but we agree on something but some of us have sudden change of minds...wat are we suppose to do? and becoz the webbie was so misleading. Anyway, farhana broke the slipper n wats Praaa?
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:Wednesday, May 04, 2005:
An UnHappY yoUth
paris hilton = slut = bitch = hot =my fav = hilton empire =mine!!
haha...nice link huh...well, i'm in a damn bad mood today...and i shall not say any further...if u think that u can PMS me i think u better think again...and fuck off...i aint that easy bullied...so thats my life...
my life is like the OC..and so i watch it..
thursday gng watch starwars epi 3 the revenge of the sith
friday gng watch house of wax = paris hilton+ chad micheal murray
sat cheong pool
sunday swimming and church
and i dunn wanna tok abt today.bye
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:Monday, May 02, 2005:
hAppY bDaY tO mE iN 1dAy...aNd cOunTinG...
haha, well, today woke up at 10.10am..was suppose to meet my cuz at 10.30..then cheong bathe and prepare my stuffs..haha..then wendy call say that can meet at 10.45am? then felicia say can meet at 11? haha..all be late sia...then the previous night knn drunk with too much shots of tequila sia..haha...
well, today then everyone late today sia...only Zack and Gurion early..lolz...waited for us at the restaurant called hanabi...damn nice jap buffet sia...damn X also then i treating haah...KNS!! but the.... its for a good course lahz...we can have lunch together...lolz..reach there 30mins late...at 12noon then reach..haha...we sat there till like 2.30pm sia...order and order and order and order sia...drink alot of green tea today...haha...
after lunch we walked to NTUC and buy sparking juice becoz some of us cant take alcohol...ahem*..haha...then we went to do the most sinful thing of the day...buy magnum intense ice-cream and eat sia..haha...the chocolate is damn ....*slupp* haha...sinful sia...while walking back and eating at the same time..haha...
when reach back to grams, wendy, sis sandra , felicia and i started our mahjong game sia...haha...cheong mahjong...lose like hell sia...boo to luck*!like shit like tat lahz...i hate it...then play CS awhile then continue mahjong and losing too..haha...too bad...not faithed to play today sia...damn shit...
i'm damn pissed with some ass who think he is always right but actually the problem lies with the ass himself...fuck U!
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