:Friday, September 30, 2005:

have you ever thought that you knew someone,
and you know that person
in almost everything but the more you know that someone,
the more disgusted you become?

why is it happening to me.
the more you do not want to see that someone.
in the past, i tot that he could be the one
but now, pui~
everything he does or says are like crap
wolf in sheep's skin

lucky benji. *wipe's sweat*
what's the meaning of
"whom ever who owns you must be real lucky?"
OWN me?
i aint a sex toy darling..

doesnt mean that i agreed to meet you means that there is a hope
why is everyone hoping?
i aint giving you this hope
dont start pointing your finger at me

you disgust me more and more
you're not the first nor the last i guess
just blame it on my sweet luck
having to meet someone like you

you expect us to be friends after what you have done?
you think going behind my back and asking dear to break up with me is right?
just becoz u want to make a move on me
darn how desperate can you be
and you expect him not to come and tell me?
ha ha..god, u win man..
after i confronted you,
u got the fark cheek to hug me?
omg.
in simple words,
just becoz u cant have me, doesnt mean u have to ask him to break with me.
i didnt expect you to do this.
you disgrace AJs man..u and that ryan..
how alike can you two be
what a matchmake.

i dont want to see you anymore
stop following me downtown
and stop hugging and holding my hand
my hand aint for you to hold.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 7:45 PM| |

__________

::

this is what i have been doing for the past 2 days.
trying to finish this set of VCDs

its quite nice yea..
finished the first set already
moving on to the 2nd


have to finish it b4 sch opens
ha ha..then i'll be busy again


Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 9:51 AM| |

__________

:Thursday, September 29, 2005:

back with pics..had to do this like twice becoz blogger is giving me problems...

my godmother and i drove it with relatives that speak gibberish
so 1/2 the time, i dont understand what they were trying to say..
and well, my godmother speaks gibberish too..
so lucky me~


thats my baby cousins...midgets they are~..

and thanks to having my cam with me~!
ha...had lunch at tung lok ..hmmm
dim sum...too bad deary couldnt come..


ok, finally at sentosa...
got the weather was darn hot..
it was giving me headaches again.

and yes, i admit that i am a bad photographer.. i'm just not cut out for photography

this darn thing looks like a plastic bag when i first snapped it
crap jellyfish


this old man had his time with the fishes...lucky him..

any food for my deary to eat?? share ..

got to get this taken...ha..its godmother...



godmother and i were talking pics of each other..ha ha..

this bitch was playing a fool with me
giving me a hard time getting a decent shot..
even my godmother couldn't get one ..
the darn enterance fee for 4 adults was $78!~
omg...

spent 1/2 the day at sentosa
the best was at cinemax i guessed
without it, sentosa will suck
we spent alot today
argh..can spend anymore benji
but will be gng to the night safari tmr
i hope i dont get bitten by mosquitoes
dont wanna get dengue now
mayb next time..

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 11:12 PM| |

__________

:Wednesday, September 28, 2005:

its already wednesday,
4more days be4 sch opens again
thats fast, judging from the amount of things i had to complete during the hols
can say that i spend more times with my family than my friends...
been MIAing quite alot.

was suppose to meet benji today,
but, things crop..MIA again..
*sorries*
had to meet this other person also
sort of he asked me out..
couldnt make it..
dont even know who he is...
added me on msn...
didnt reply him much and he said he wanted to date me
omg..has the number of pple in the world been deprived of loved lately?

my friendster profile has been viewed alot lately
increased in viewings almost tripled!
hmm..i wonder who are the ones..

i think that i am going to spend the remaining days watching Wind and Cloud the VCD set.
my godmother has it and i wanna complete it b4 sch opens..
been watching for hours already.
wish me luck!

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 2:50 PM| |

__________

:Tuesday, September 27, 2005:

went down town to meet sean today
had like thai expressed for lunch
went to watch the sound of thunder..
blah..not very entertaining..
its more of a
"welcome-to-the-future-and-destory-everything"

went chilling after that and Jj's msg me..
went to meet him at cine..
went to look for emma's present
his bday's on sat..
omg...17 already!

went NYDC to eat
had to order something for my deary..
he didnt wanna eat anything..
*blah*
and he played with my ice-cream!
darn it..

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 7:59 PM| |

__________

:Sunday, September 25, 2005:

pics are up. thanks for not rushing mua..ha..enjoy hur..


my cousin and i and thats my beloved sister and i

mostly the pple who were involved Xcluding the two midgets..
yes, my sister is the diamond..she is the only granddaugther.

the VIP table.. in gold which represents the night..

the car..done up by my cousins..rather plain and simple.
the way my grams like it.

my 'muz have' things on that night. inorder to get up to the room which is on the 9th floor, we have to use the life card. ha..talk abt grand.

and its me the next morning...kinda tired.



that's me and my nanny..she took care of me when i was young until now.


thats my mother and i and my godmother getting my sister done up.

my cousin and i and finally, the three of us. buah~ in color codes..starting with me, orange, green and blue.



preparation for the night. ha..yup thats my cousin with green tie , the english MC and then its me and my future brother-in-law, which was the chinese MC for that night.

and yes, there was this part where all the grandchildren and the children (included in-laws) went up to kiss my grams and my grams cried..omg..becoz my cousin was also singing 'mama' by Il Divo and many pple teared.
it was a great one..ha ha..
its over, everyone's happy.
and thats to Jj for me bitching to him all these while..
ha...

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 12:09 PM| |

__________

::

My cousin and i. dressed sort of informal as yet.


my godmother with her makeup kits..u can just imagine.. ha ha...



and this is the welcome gift. champange and fruit cake..omg, its damn sweet...
buah~ someone's not eating..

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 12:07 PM| |

__________

:Saturday, September 24, 2005:

Surprisingly, didnt want to wake up that early today
but mother forced me up at 9 am..
darn..listening to Hero by Mariah Carey
thinking of some pple and my life so far
have i been enjoying?
buah~

tonight's the night.
tryin to feel the rhythm of the night.
hopefully that i can keep myself entertained later...
Jj's gonnas help me..
ha ha

been really tired and tonight will be the night
after that. free~
daryl's gng fly to australia on wednesday night
family stuffs..
there goes my luck of him jio-ing me out
stomp performance at the esplanade has been changed to wednesday
so therefore, no way i can send him to the airport..
gonna miss him..male bitch times..sighs~
but its ok...
i still have pple here that i can be with..
ha ha..

got to go soon.
kinda rushed to prepare the stuffs for tonight..
*waves*

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 1:51 AM| |

__________

:Friday, September 23, 2005:

benji is pissed and not happy
there has alot of things that has been coming up to me lately which makes me..
well, utter pissed..
it just shows that all my effort into all my work has been nothing but emptiness to you people

and to take all the credit?
omg, i'm not happy.
i'm bad with words now.
i stay up late till 3 am to get this done
with my eyes all sore
and worked my baby ass off
and this is the things that i receive from you pple

i'm stressed out and tired
but its okay
what you pple dont see, heaven will see

enough of them.
went to meet my peeps today at bugis..
and, i still had to wait for them. -sighs-
ok, so after much walking
we went down town...
and i hate my new hair cut!
its soo00 short..
omg, i have to go back to lawrence man..
he is more professional
and meet Jjs'!
waved...*waves*
and had to rush back becoz of relatives coming from overseas..
darn..i hate it..
and the best part was that i dont even understand the language that they speak!
*blah*

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 11:30 PM| |

__________

:Thursday, September 22, 2005:

after travelling so many different destinations and places,
i will finally be able to travel back to the place where i want to go back to the most now.
that yea, thats bangkok.
like finally * jumps around *

but will have to wait for like so long just to go.
hmm.. its ok benji, wait wait and it will pay off
will be departing on the 19th december and coming back on the 27th
alast! rolls in the drinking times again..ha ha.

anyone wanna come join me?
i dont think i want to share room with my aunt *blah*
and my sister is not going too
so no way for me to share room with her

my hair color is getting more and more obvious.
omg..and my relatives will be arriving from hongkong and bangkok tmr
bad impression hur..
who cares..will still be meeting my peeps from PS0102 in the afternoon
will be out
try spotting me~

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 1:20 PM| |

__________

:Wednesday, September 21, 2005:

^ family ^

Here to say that i have completed my slides for saturday night
damn, i don't want to see it anymore
having phobias of it..
try asking my godmother
worked my baby ass off for the slides and some irritant aunts and my dad
have to give they 2 cents worth of crap which i do not need
read it *VERBAL DIARRHEA*

i'm pissed to shits about them and their comments on this slides
the effort is not on them and they speak like its so easy
do me a favor and fuck off imbeciles

you didnt do anything for the coming night so don't give your "not helping" comments to me
i guessed as much that you shit heads cum fuck faces will steal all the credits from me and my godmother already
so i'm saying this now
i will not be afraid to embarrass you infront of our guest.
don't push me anymore.

and friends, don't mind the previous entry
its more of AJ pple
and i am happy where i am
getting to know new pple and stuffs
i will try not to be MIA anymore

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 1:42 PM| |

__________

:Tuesday, September 20, 2005:

its stomp!
a huge bunch of up-to-date noise makers wannabes
will be going to watch it at the esplanade with my sis
it will be next tuesday
anyone interested?
msg me on msn or my cell ya
finding for bud to go
ticket price to be confirm again

and i have made up my mind
if you are my friend or my X
you can't hold my hand, hug me or anything
its just best that we remain as friends
unless you are my sister, close friends or my stead
and pple out there happening to come over my blog,
dont ask me for my cellphone number
i only give it to pple
not you asking from me.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 8:33 PM| |

__________

::

once again Benji is single
confused or unprepared
i don't know
but i think its more of the unprepared

got to thank 'Darj' jie for yesterday's incident
not sure whether will be meetin on friday
slackin at home preparing for saturday's event
kinda nerve racking having to think abt it

changed my blog song
guessed that the chorus has some meaning
coming to think about trust
if you can't trust anyone not even your friends
then you shouldn't even be walking along the streets of singapore.
lets say even if you can't trust your friends all the time,
your trust with your loved one has to be there.

-period-

got maksim's scores
because its copyrighted,
i think that i'll just post the title of the scores
with the respective album titles.
each comin from each of the 3 different Cds he has.








Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 1:10 PM| |

__________

:Monday, September 19, 2005:

To think that you actually know me
You don't
To think that you actually understand me
You don't
To think that you actually own me
You don't
To think that I want you
I don't

Get your facts right before talking to me
I don't take second handed/ passed down info
If you do have something to tell me
Tell me
Don't go telling others behind my back
unless it's gossips.
I understand that sometimes pple's mouths are just itchy to say something
no doubt i'm like this too.

If you don't trust me just because he is back
Then we are over
If losing me is everything in your mind
I have nothing to say
But for the time now
Leave me be

Its these few days where i need you most and you are not here by me
As my stress load is increased
The headaches are coming back
Its difficult for me to sleep at night
although how tired I maybe
there are too many things on my mind
and our problem doesn't have to be on it
But with heart felt thanks
Everything got worst.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 5:00 PM| |

__________

::

its time to free the lost and confused minds
lets start with dream
dream, kenn's back, i know.
that doesn't concern me anymore
i dont know why the sudden appearance from sydney
i dont know why he is back in spore
but it doesn't concern me.

next in list, darryl.
eh, let me clear yr mind for ya k? -.-
ha ha...
darj is my sister. His name is Darryl
He has been my best bud for like god ages
guiding and helpin me when i need it most
and...
Darryl is ya..
The one and only k..
so, therefore, 2 different pple
*nod's head in agreement*

thirdly,lost, you dont have to hide or anything.
if they are friends indeed,
they will accept you for who you are
and not what you are
you have to try opening things up soon
if not life will be dreadful

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 2:04 PM| |

__________

:Sunday, September 18, 2005:

i'm going to take a break really soon
just needed one now
my eyes are hurting from the long hours with my lappy
having to update my blog so that pple will not bitch at me *ahem*

pple may find me arrogant of stuffs
but just to say,
i dont have hard feelings
its okay,
come on, look at the pple i hang out with
get to know me better
and everything's changed

its already a sunday and i lived without coffee for 24 hours
i usually need 2 shots from my machine once a day
my fingers are stiff
need to use the piano soon
cant wait till saturday
its gonna be grand.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 11:55 AM| |

__________

:Saturday, September 17, 2005:

Okies, did make the effort to change my blogskin
*ahem* darryl jie and dear*ahem*
point taken ah..
firstly, my blog is not kiddish
mayb only the skin
and ya, i was out of my mind when i used the simpsons ok?

figured that i will receive alot of bad comments
becoz its just not me to have that kiddish stuffs?
i'm being viewed differently already

changed of mind
changed of heart
relationships don't last
but for now
i hope that they do.
or that's what i HOPE

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 11:35 PM| |

__________

::

brought my dad to the hospital for his checkup today
and we were talking about me
as you already know, i will be shifting soon
he was saying that mayb we shd shift to a 5 room HDB flat or something
i told him i dont mind
but the space constrains are a killer
and using the remaining money to send me overseas to further my education
well, i aint cheap. my dad does want to send me over to canada

then we were talking about me and my attitude nowadays have changed and etc
i'm 100% pride, status to me in important.
be it any kind of status.
to me, its important.
class is a standard of origins.
the way 'class' is categorize is:
if you have it, you HAVE it
if you don't, you JUST DON'T

this is something that one must face.
and to me, as i also told my dad,
class to me is important too.
coming from my background,
well, my standards are there
its here to stay.

Benji wants to eat...Benji wants to sleep...Benji wants dear...Benji doesn't want weird dreams
Benji wants daryl jie now...Benji wants all farking despos to eat shit...
Benji wants to end it all here.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 2:10 PM| |

__________

::

T in SG says:
Hello Benji

.: Benji :. Eat Slugs Benji says:
harlow

T in SG says:
How is your night

T in SG says:
?

.: Benji :. Eat Slugs Benji says:
nope..been home for long

T in SG says:
i live in river valley

T in SG says:
you?

.: Benji :. Eat Slugs Benji says:
serangoon.

T in SG says:
oh

T in SG says:
not that far lah

T in SG says:
i just move here last week

T in SG says:
last week i stayed in bishan

.: Benji :. Eat Slugs Benji says:
o ok

.: Benji :. Eat Slugs Benji says:
whats with the move?

T in SG says:
a nicer place

T in SG says:
now in condo

.: Benji :. Eat Slugs Benji says:
o ok

.: Benji :. Eat Slugs Benji says:
cool

T in SG says:
stay with parents?

.: Benji :. Eat Slugs Benji says:
yea

T in SG says:
what r u doing tomorrow?

.: Benji :. Eat Slugs Benji says:
not sure

.: Benji :. Eat Slugs Benji says:
y

T in SG says:
can meet lah

.: Benji :. Eat Slugs Benji says:
o...4?

T in SG says:
chat chat

.: Benji :. Eat Slugs Benji says:
o ok

.: Benji :. Eat Slugs Benji says:
see how

T in SG says:
my number is 81-3 2-5-

T in SG says:
Tony

.: Benji :. Eat Slugs Benji says:
o ok.

Fuck off despos.

| Stripped and Lusted 12:04 AM| |

__________

:Friday, September 16, 2005:

and today, i got my third maksim album
A New World
all thanks to dear
woohoO~ the first song is nice
its new world Concerto by Dvorak


and dear changed my blog music
my cousin sent me this song and its nice.
ha, listen and pay attention

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 10:20 PM| |

__________

::

not been blogging for sometime
thats so not me
days are getting shorter
and the family event draws near
omg, thats fast
will be in a suit soon
damn, it will be a hell of an event
women in gowns and men is suits
come lets talk abt class!

pics time!
wo0ho0~

my granddad has green fingers.
with the aid of my grandmother,
garden of eden is formed

the usual hangout every sunday.
the family gathers and well, gossip?


my dog. its from alasaka
far from a place called home.


thank you God for this machine
it brews my coffee every morning
from the finest coffee seeds.
nothing beats having fresh brewed coffee in the morning wor..


the dinning area.
yes. with 2 frigdes.
we eat alot.

1/2 the living hall.
gatherings are held here.
and that autentic set with 2 chairs there---has been in my family for 50years



ah, and yes. finally,the messed up mahjong room
kinda messy with my cuz's and my stuffs filling up the room all the time.
but then,
there is something wrong with the internet connection already
wireless has been giving a problem.

| Stripped and Lusted 5:40 PM| |

__________