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:Tuesday, April 17, 2007:

Things have been a bit haywire lately. My mood's swinging
like a yoyo. Well, don't blame me but the fever that I'm having.
Just by looking at the time now and having to stay up blogging.
School's in again which means the year1s are here. Gosh,
there's so many things to do.

I do feel lonely at times. Having to wear the usual mask we all
wear infront of our friends, having to hide the ugliness from
within. Having to put up a strong front to show that outgoingness
when exactly, the person inside is weak and broken.
With so many things running through my mind, I wish I had
spent more time with you. I wished you actually spent more
time with me.

Call me the paranoid bitch but I only get to see the person I
love for awhile. I can't help but love you even more. Which
makes it even harder for me cause I bother too much.
A sentence in Saunders' blog caught my eye which I couldn't
help but agree.
I missed so many things about you.
But why, why do you have to lie.

I read through your sms-es like a bedtime story.
I missed you so much.

Benji


| Stripped and Lusted 12:09 AM| |

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about the boy.
'benji
02may88.taurus
maxatom@hotmail.com

sitting in the dark.
in a room. facing the wall.
looking back at the past.
wearing a mask, hiding the truth.
it's time to reveal everything.

gaps left behind.
the streets were wet and the gate was locked.
so i jumped it and let you in.
with your hand around my waist.
everything could be felt again.
and i knew that you meant it.

not forgetting.
Andy
Benji
Cindy
Chu Yang
Dennis
Darren
Fyedee
Gary
James
Jeremy
Jiawei
Jimmy
Jayden
Matthew
Max
Nick
Shuhui
Sean Remiel
Trent
Wei Hao
Xiaotaizi Didi

I declare.

I declare that there are losers in life. But nothing compares to those whom spam tagboards. Cause they have nothing better to do but try to beautify other people's life by the attention they are giving.

Blessed Be,



antiquity.