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:Thursday, September 28, 2006:

My heart sank. Each time you appearred, I'll be so
happy just to see you. After that few sentences
you spoke to me about, I wanted to stab myself
in the heart and wished I never knew you. The
words you used hurt the hell out of me.

In every single misunderstanding, you had to be
the one that was right although you were wrong.
You had to have the last say in everything. You
always have something else to say. Everything I've
been doing and saying isn't of much use anymore.

Everything people read this shit on my blog,
they always ask whether I'm okay, how am I
feeling. Whenever they call, the first thing they
say is whether I am okay. And I'll always say I am.
But why? why keep the hurt and ugliness within.
I fucking lied to myself and worst of all, I fucking
lied to all my friends. Why? Its because I'm
not okay.

Benji


| Stripped and Lusted 8:35 PM| |

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about the boy.
'benji
02may88.taurus
maxatom@hotmail.com

sitting in the dark.
in a room. facing the wall.
looking back at the past.
wearing a mask, hiding the truth.
it's time to reveal everything.

gaps left behind.
the streets were wet and the gate was locked.
so i jumped it and let you in.
with your hand around my waist.
everything could be felt again.
and i knew that you meant it.

not forgetting.
Andy
Benji
Cindy
Chu Yang
Dennis
Darren
Fyedee
Gary
James
Jeremy
Jiawei
Jimmy
Jayden
Matthew
Max
Nick
Shuhui
Sean Remiel
Trent
Wei Hao
Xiaotaizi Didi

I declare.

I declare that there are losers in life. But nothing compares to those whom spam tagboards. Cause they have nothing better to do but try to beautify other people's life by the attention they are giving.

Blessed Be,



antiquity.