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:Monday, September 25, 2006:

I kept my promises and I hope it will never change, but
I'm afraid of the future, and I'm afraid that I'll change.
For the better or for worst, I don't know. I colored myself
out of the picture and I deformed myself. I want to run
away from everything thats causing us harm. I risk my
everything just to show how I felt.

Yet I cannot expose the answer to that problem that has
been burning to come out of me. I can't risk it and I can't
afford another breakdown. I can't go on living in a
memory of your soul. I can't go on doing the things that
I have been doing. After all, there will be no purpose
already. I don't know whether you will get the picture
but I'm tired.


My blog title was once,
The boy whom the world couldn't stop. But I think I'm
wrong about that. I need to be loved again.

Benji


| Stripped and Lusted 11:04 AM| |

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about the boy.
'benji
02may88.taurus
maxatom@hotmail.com

sitting in the dark.
in a room. facing the wall.
looking back at the past.
wearing a mask, hiding the truth.
it's time to reveal everything.

gaps left behind.
the streets were wet and the gate was locked.
so i jumped it and let you in.
with your hand around my waist.
everything could be felt again.
and i knew that you meant it.

not forgetting.
Andy
Benji
Cindy
Chu Yang
Dennis
Darren
Fyedee
Gary
James
Jeremy
Jiawei
Jimmy
Jayden
Matthew
Max
Nick
Shuhui
Sean Remiel
Trent
Wei Hao
Xiaotaizi Didi

I declare.

I declare that there are losers in life. But nothing compares to those whom spam tagboards. Cause they have nothing better to do but try to beautify other people's life by the attention they are giving.

Blessed Be,



antiquity.