:Monday, August 07, 2006:

Tell me its time to give up on the things that I hold
close to me. Tell me that I've been holding on to
friends just to much till I'll be blinded by their very
lies and actions. Today's just been too much for one
to handle. Talking about being hypocritical. Thanks
to mum who can even bring that up infront of me
and thanks to me having to shoot examples of her
infront of daddy, she just goes silent.

FUCK this. I guess that the game has started. Don't
even get me started on what happened and excuses
that all of you have been giving. Excuses are nothing
but reasons put in good words. I've had enough of
the hell and nonsense that has been going on. The
trust that was once given and built on just came
crashing down. Not to me only, but to the 2 other
closes people in line in my life. I'm speechless to the
extend where I've been made to believe of giving up.

I'm having enough nonsense from my mum already,
and I don't need these now. I need you people to just
be here like how we were there for you. You don't call
us friends and then do something behind. The next
time I see you, should I return the knife that you stabbed?
Or just ask you to shoot me in the head for being fooled
by a liar. Now you tell me, what should I do? I've been
kept in the dark for too long, and now, ashes to ashes,
spirits to spirits, its time for payback.
And boy, payback's an ASS.

Benji

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