:Saturday, August 26, 2006:

Life of a child is no easier than the life of a teenager.
And life of a teenager is no easier than the life of an
adult. I feel haunted by my past and now by my
parents. They're breathing down my neck everytime
I go back late. ARGH I'm 18 and at the rate that they
are haunting me, I'll die by the age of 21. There's reason
for everything that I am doing. There's a reason why
I chose to switch my cellphone off. There's a reason
why I'm the way I am now.

But I guess I have to say that I do joy. Thanks to my
friends that I have have. The people that seriously
understand what's going on in me. Yes I do feel that I've
been leading a secret life for the past 4 years. It's not
going to be easy. But things will pull through, Or for
that matter I hope. This is, I leave a poem to read.

And so it came to be
this isolation that I am
I can only look at me
to find the way it all began-
this confusion, constant
hunger for something more than this
I strive to find this being
that I envision, yet seem to miss,
could it be that I am empty-
or maybe a little lost?
could it be that I am lonely,
or seeking happiness at all cost?
this never ending something
that I am living deep inside,
depicts the illusion of myself
and all I have to hide.

To the people that have been reading my blog,
be it I know who you are or not, a word of thanks.
=)

Benji

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