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:Wednesday, August 30, 2006:

I shouldn't have agreed, I shouldn't have opened my mouth
and I should have just walk my lonely path home. It just felt
all weird having to sit there accepting what was coming ahead
although I knew it wasn't going to be a good one.

It's like, seeing your own death infront of you but knowing
you can't do anything about it. It's freaky. Having to know
that the person that you want to be with cannot be with you
and that the person that likes you will never get a part of you.
Having to sit from a corner just to eye with that look and
watch you with every single bit of envy they have.

I've been there and felt that. And to those that I've hurt,
I'm sorry but well, I'm the way I am. I get angry easily and I
know that. But then again, I need someone that can tell me
that and tell me everything that I need to know. Will that
come? I don't know. As I said, I don't feel loved anymore.
I don't know who to tell when I'm sad. Therefore, I rather
be alone and drown myself with my sorrows.

Benji


| Stripped and Lusted 11:58 PM| |

__________



about the boy.
'benji
02may88.taurus
maxatom@hotmail.com

sitting in the dark.
in a room. facing the wall.
looking back at the past.
wearing a mask, hiding the truth.
it's time to reveal everything.

gaps left behind.
the streets were wet and the gate was locked.
so i jumped it and let you in.
with your hand around my waist.
everything could be felt again.
and i knew that you meant it.

not forgetting.
Andy
Benji
Cindy
Chu Yang
Dennis
Darren
Fyedee
Gary
James
Jeremy
Jiawei
Jimmy
Jayden
Matthew
Max
Nick
Shuhui
Sean Remiel
Trent
Wei Hao
Xiaotaizi Didi

I declare.

I declare that there are losers in life. But nothing compares to those whom spam tagboards. Cause they have nothing better to do but try to beautify other people's life by the attention they are giving.

Blessed Be,



antiquity.