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:Sunday, July 30, 2006:

These few days has been seriously a good excuse for me to
get shot in the head or stabbed in the back. Things has been
going way down and I just wished I was never born. I don't
know how to handle myself anymore. Its getting more and
more complicated and after all these ups and downs, its
never going to seem any better already. I'm really worried
for my bro now. He sounded bad on the phone. And so much
to me wanting to go down town to be there, things back home
has gotten worst.

Will somebody tell me how to carry on with life? God, I need
someone that can take care of me. Aye, all the problems that
we have to go through are getting way out of control. And
we're letting these problems control us and our actions. I
seriously need a break. I'm so lost on the inside again that
I don't know what I want. And the people around me are not
using their brains to think before actually doing things. Why.
Why. It hurts so bad on the inside having to sit at home and
miss my bros and look at myself going, LOVE. -hugs-

Benji


| Stripped and Lusted 11:40 PM| |

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about the boy.
'benji
02may88.taurus
maxatom@hotmail.com

sitting in the dark.
in a room. facing the wall.
looking back at the past.
wearing a mask, hiding the truth.
it's time to reveal everything.

gaps left behind.
the streets were wet and the gate was locked.
so i jumped it and let you in.
with your hand around my waist.
everything could be felt again.
and i knew that you meant it.

not forgetting.
Andy
Benji
Cindy
Chu Yang
Dennis
Darren
Fyedee
Gary
James
Jeremy
Jiawei
Jimmy
Jayden
Matthew
Max
Nick
Shuhui
Sean Remiel
Trent
Wei Hao
Xiaotaizi Didi

I declare.

I declare that there are losers in life. But nothing compares to those whom spam tagboards. Cause they have nothing better to do but try to beautify other people's life by the attention they are giving.

Blessed Be,



antiquity.