:Sunday, July 16, 2006:

Now things have become clearer. The unseen became
known and the unheard became loud. Those secrets we
hide deep down inside has emerged becoming known
to the closest people around. Nothing's going to be like
it used to. I feel hurt deep down refusing to show signs
of weakness on the outside. Referring back to the mask
we all wear to hide the ugliness of whats within. BANG
someone shoot me in the head now.

The fakeness of souls. Acting one imagine infront and
another behind. We create too many imagines infront
of people till we forget what we actually are. Therefore,
we are not what we are on the outside. Things just get
uglier when we dive deeper. I can't wait to move out
of my parents. I cannot live with them. I see myself
becoming more and more like them. What a nightmare.

My mum just cried to me telling me things that has
been happening behind my back. The things that my
relatives can say about me. My mum's hurt. I guess its
my fault all the while. Well, also having to deal with the
people that are closest to me having to be so twisted and
fake. I can't take these anymore, forced till the extend
of realizing that one man's trash is the next man's
treasure. One man's pain is the next man's pleasure.

Everyone's changing. Should I?

Benji

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