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:Wednesday, July 05, 2006:

I was walking along town today and I bumped into MEL!
Aye, she's the usual cheerful girl that used to make me happy
although I'm down and stuffs. I wish that I was her sometimes.
She looks all happy everytime. Not having things to bother
about . Yet there are still so many things running through
my mind.

I need time. I need to be alone for awhile just to think things
out for myself. I can take care of myself already. I'm 18.
I don't need people fetching me to school or walking me back
after school. I'm okay, I really am. Ian's sharing her problems
with me. Well, at least I can do something to help her.

For once I put my stuffs aside just to listen to her. Things won't
be what they used to be anymore. It won't be the same. I feel
so used. Is it just me or am I seeking happiness at any cost?
There's a long list of people that I'm missing so badly now.
Jonathan D' Andrea Max BINGZHAO Matthew Ian Doreen
Lynn Jamie Roy Lin June Kenneth and the list just goes on.
I miss my chilling days.

SIGHS. Please let my troubled mind be cool. I want to be happy.
Nanny I miss you too. Oh, did I mention that saturday's shopping
day with Andrea? HAH. GUCCI here I come. And then clubbing's
in. Quick Quick or I'll kill myself already.

Benji


| Stripped and Lusted 11:29 PM| |

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about the boy.
'benji
02may88.taurus
maxatom@hotmail.com

sitting in the dark.
in a room. facing the wall.
looking back at the past.
wearing a mask, hiding the truth.
it's time to reveal everything.

gaps left behind.
the streets were wet and the gate was locked.
so i jumped it and let you in.
with your hand around my waist.
everything could be felt again.
and i knew that you meant it.

not forgetting.
Andy
Benji
Cindy
Chu Yang
Dennis
Darren
Fyedee
Gary
James
Jeremy
Jiawei
Jimmy
Jayden
Matthew
Max
Nick
Shuhui
Sean Remiel
Trent
Wei Hao
Xiaotaizi Didi

I declare.

I declare that there are losers in life. But nothing compares to those whom spam tagboards. Cause they have nothing better to do but try to beautify other people's life by the attention they are giving.

Blessed Be,



antiquity.