:Saturday, July 15, 2006:

I was chilling yesterday in town till about 10 at night
when I realized that I need someone to be with me.
I realized that I was just being the old me that used
to chill the night away cause it was a friday night
just refusing to be home early. And then again, having
to be at work the next day totally tires me out. I miss
then saturdays that I used to chill with my peeps and
now that Jo's leaving for brisbane, I doubt whether I'll
be able to make it for her farewell party.

I go to sleep everynight now just thinking what I'll do
or become in the future. I'm afraid for the future. At
the rate that I'm going in life or at school, I don't think
that I'll make it very far. I feel so sinky sometimes
just knowing that I'll fall back into my loneliness.
I'm afraid, I'm afraid. Someone please help me this once.
I didn't want to sleep and I waited till midnight just to
see if there were to be that someone online to talk too,
but I guess, it never came.

Having to know somethings about work. DAMN citibank's
sucking a hell load out of me. I feel no motivation to go to
work anymore. Everyone's changing and just not wanting
to stay with citibank, and now, I wonder whether the
problem lies with the us or with the bank. I'm seriously
thinking of finishing my 1 year with the bank and resigning
thereafter already. I can't wait to go overseas yet not
wanting to leave my peeps behind. I live everything for
them. I don't know what I'll do without them.

Then again, I'm being ramdom. Or am I not? Clubbing next
week already.

Benji

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