:Monday, July 31, 2006:

I feel really disguested. I guess the people or person
that can tell me one thing and yet do another ought
to be shoot. I know, that I have loads of anger in me.
But yet the things that one can say just to cover his
ass can hurt another so bad and the things that he say
can cause so much misunderstandings yet as what
Jovan said in his blog, underneath the superficial
"hugs" and "affections", everything else is so fake
and untrue.

If you don't have the heart to do it in the first place,
then don't do it. You don't come and tell me you're
all these and that making yourself sound so caring
when at the back, you just stabbed me so hard, getting
me all confused whether I can trust to say another
thing already.

I have seen colors beyond colors heard things beyond
words and felt feelings beyond feelings. Yet I guess life
wanted to take a turn for me and well, no one said it
was going to be easy. The closest hurts you the most.
Remember that. I don't need pity or concern from
some people who acts like a doubleheaded snake. Cause
I know that nothing is actually true about it. I've waken
up from this stupid long sleep. Its time for the fun to start.
It is really time.

So please, stay away. Stay far away.

Benji

| Stripped and Lusted 9:56 PM| |

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