:Sunday, June 18, 2006:

The thoughts came running back into my mind.
The stupid things that I have to do just to get
things my way. Why do I find my sorrows and
pain in songs which make me feel worst. I'm on
the verge of breaking, for the angel of death
is here to claim it's soul.

It hurts so bad for me to see you this way. Yet
filled with sadness and pain, keeping everything
in. I felt like shit yesterday night. And you know
what, that was the first time attitude came into
the picture. I hate myself. I don't know why
there are so many people around me that care
but my inner soul just refuses to accept it.

My life is nothing but a nightmare from one
of the freak movies. I've afraid to have time alone
by myself. I'm afraid that I'll not know what I'm
doing when I'm alone. There's just too much that
time cannot erase. When you cry I wipe away
all of your tears, When you scream I fight away
all of your fears. I held your hand through all
of these years. You still have me.
I try so hard to tell myself that you're gone.
But though you're still with me, I've been alone
all along.

This is how lyrics kill me slowly like a thousand
knives piercing my heart slowly. Now you
understand why I'm afraid to be alone. Now
you understand why I love yet am afraid of
music. Then again, I'm sorry for what happened
yesterday night. Screw myself.

I feel like sitting behind orhard mrt just to
cry my eyes out. Why am I putting myself in an
important place when I'm nothing but a low life
kid.

Benji

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