:Monday, June 05, 2006:

In just a few hours i'll be embarking
on my not so long awaited journey to
brisbane with my peeps. Well, I'm hoping
that something bad really happens to me
over there. Like getting lost and having
the reoccurance of the blair witch project
happening to me. How many times do
I have to hurt people or well, also inturn
people hurting me. Just die there.

Yet on the other hand, hoping that
my friends here will take care. The feeling
of having to part just for that 9 days is like
shit. The chillings we all had. The quarrels
and misunderstandings. darn. I hate myself.
I'll miss you all. Sounds weird but I will.
I don't have my internet there and I'll
be suffering for 9 days without saying "hi".
Pfft..
Max - promise me to get the fun you deserve
there. Its the czech for christ sake. leave the
shit behind like what you told me.

Anavil - Don't think so much. Although we're
not here, ermm..take care of yourself yea.
Time doesn't heal the scars. Friends do.

Doreen - You shitter. I'll miss you lar. although
max's kinda disappointed I didn't say him.rofl.
thanks for covering my shift.

Lin - I know whats happening to you and you're
family. Well, you have us. Just chill and I'll be
back sooner than you know it.

And to lin and doreen, once trust is broken, its
difficult to gain it back. Thats why we stick so
close together. Never have I doubted you peeps
and thanks for that. smiles people. Just like for me,
its difficult to trust again but you know, its just
100%. What will I do without you all? -smiles-
I hold grudges. Leopards doesn't change its
spots. Neither do Zebra crossings.
Trust shatters like glass just like the hurt we've
received all these while. But i'm glad both of
you were here for me.

And max and anavil, we won't change. It's
going to be the same for a very long time.
I'm going to miss you both.

Now I can die in peace.

Benji

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