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:Thursday, June 15, 2006:

Having the song Unfaithful being played
in my ipod and on the itunes really just
keeps me thinking.
Maybe I should have just died in brisbane
and never come back. And that max should
get kidnapped and die in Europe which leaves
the two of us just dead.

Having the 101 thoughts just running through
my mind with the song playing hard just
makes me think that there is nothing much
worth being here at all. I feel so empty on the
inside. Waking up every morning not knowing
what's there for me. Having the negative
thoughts just running through my mind.

My eyes are closing and yet I force myself
to pin all these down. I seriously dont know what
I want. Just realizing that my life is that empty
without the people that I love in it.
I dont know how long I can hold myself together
anymore. Someone help me out. Yet the only
thing that can hear me shouting is my shadow.
And once again, I just have to sit in my solace
and get my thoughts out.

and you really hurt me thinking that you're
always self degrading yourself.

Benji


| Stripped and Lusted 12:24 AM| |

__________



about the boy.
'benji
02may88.taurus
maxatom@hotmail.com

sitting in the dark.
in a room. facing the wall.
looking back at the past.
wearing a mask, hiding the truth.
it's time to reveal everything.

gaps left behind.
the streets were wet and the gate was locked.
so i jumped it and let you in.
with your hand around my waist.
everything could be felt again.
and i knew that you meant it.

not forgetting.
Andy
Benji
Cindy
Chu Yang
Dennis
Darren
Fyedee
Gary
James
Jeremy
Jiawei
Jimmy
Jayden
Matthew
Max
Nick
Shuhui
Sean Remiel
Trent
Wei Hao
Xiaotaizi Didi

I declare.

I declare that there are losers in life. But nothing compares to those whom spam tagboards. Cause they have nothing better to do but try to beautify other people's life by the attention they are giving.

Blessed Be,



antiquity.