:Monday, June 26, 2006:

At night when I sleep, I always think of what will
happen if I wasn't around. Will things turn out
better or for worst. I don't know. Its in these times
that when I look back into the past, I feel so lost.
Did I make the correct descision or was I wrong
all along. I miss my coven. I miss the 'blackness'
that we used to hide in.

Cause when I leave this place, I know that I'll
have to leave people behind. Am I willing to take
that step, I don't know. I've been taking 3 steps up
and 2 steps back lately. What the hell is happening
to me. But well, I've got to admit that I learnt
something all these while. The problem doesn't
lie with the world, the problem lies with me.

I've been ranting all these while thinking that the
world isn't a nice place. But its people like me that
makes the world a bad place. I'm trying to make
a smile out of everything already. Give me credit
for that. But the topic that is running through my
mind now is,
whether I should go back into wicca. I know it
won't be doing me any good, but then again, we
all live life once done we? Why not make the best
out of it. Down the rabbit hole I go again.

Benji

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