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:Saturday, May 13, 2006:

Thanks for today. Appreciated. But yet
I feel that hurt. The hurt of a thousand
torns pircing me just like the past. Aye.
Its difficult to forget the past and move
on with life as I don't think I'm ready
to just set it free. I'm not willing to forget
and not willing to let my feelings fly.

At least that I got someone to talk things
out too. I feeling trashed inside. I'm
feeling caught. Just caught by what will
make me the happiest boy on earth.
Having to share the things that I have.
Having to feel the things that I feel.

I'm just in my quiet train of thoughts.
To find what I really want. The way I
managed to find myself and pulled
myself out from my pile of debris. But,
yet afraid of rejection, I remain where I
am refusing not to take another step
forward.

Now I say, my cigs came again because
of you. And, my cigs will go because of you.
With you, anything is made possible.
With you, I'm free once again.

Benji


| Stripped and Lusted 3:00 AM| |

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about the boy.
'benji
02may88.taurus
maxatom@hotmail.com

sitting in the dark.
in a room. facing the wall.
looking back at the past.
wearing a mask, hiding the truth.
it's time to reveal everything.

gaps left behind.
the streets were wet and the gate was locked.
so i jumped it and let you in.
with your hand around my waist.
everything could be felt again.
and i knew that you meant it.

not forgetting.
Andy
Benji
Cindy
Chu Yang
Dennis
Darren
Fyedee
Gary
James
Jeremy
Jiawei
Jimmy
Jayden
Matthew
Max
Nick
Shuhui
Sean Remiel
Trent
Wei Hao
Xiaotaizi Didi

I declare.

I declare that there are losers in life. But nothing compares to those whom spam tagboards. Cause they have nothing better to do but try to beautify other people's life by the attention they are giving.

Blessed Be,



antiquity.