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:Thursday, May 11, 2006:

Goodbye

I feel like shit. I feel worst each time someone
new gets to know you. I feel insecure. Although
I know I won't have you back with me. I'll be
here pulling myself out and up each time I fall.
Cause I just know, you won't be thinking of me
anymore.

If I won't be able to set someone free in me,
I won't be able to accept someone new for me.
I've found my distractions. And they're cool.
They're awesome people to hang with. I can't
stay at home. Why? Cause I know, I'll be thinking
of you. But when I chill with them, I guess I'm
happy, not reminding myself of the past.

I get jealous now. With someone else falling for you.
I hide my emotions, just to cry in my solace. Its
just that mask that covers for me. Which covers
the ugly side of me. There's nothing in me worth
an 'enough' for you. Cause, Its just gonna hurt me
more. My head hurts. It hurts now. I'm just waiting
for you to tell me one last:
"Goodbye"

Benji


| Stripped and Lusted 12:37 AM| |

__________



about the boy.
'benji
02may88.taurus
maxatom@hotmail.com

sitting in the dark.
in a room. facing the wall.
looking back at the past.
wearing a mask, hiding the truth.
it's time to reveal everything.

gaps left behind.
the streets were wet and the gate was locked.
so i jumped it and let you in.
with your hand around my waist.
everything could be felt again.
and i knew that you meant it.

not forgetting.
Andy
Benji
Cindy
Chu Yang
Dennis
Darren
Fyedee
Gary
James
Jeremy
Jiawei
Jimmy
Jayden
Matthew
Max
Nick
Shuhui
Sean Remiel
Trent
Wei Hao
Xiaotaizi Didi

I declare.

I declare that there are losers in life. But nothing compares to those whom spam tagboards. Cause they have nothing better to do but try to beautify other people's life by the attention they are giving.

Blessed Be,



antiquity.