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:Sunday, May 14, 2006:

Fear of Rejection.
Thanks to the demon of fear who visited
me late last night, where my lastest fear has
been released. Well, its obvious its the fear
of rejections. Be it rejecting others or
vice versa.
Having to face it with a brave heart is
something that I must do, therefore,
knowing my own abilities that I have.

Having to prove to others that I am that
strong. I'm going to prove everyone
wrong. I'll stand up and I'll face it.
I live for me and my loved ones. Nothing
else. I'm going to decide to be happy again.
Happy with what I have and where I am
now. I won't be greedy. And yes, I agree
that I have been having mood swings.

I guess that I'll come back down. If not,
just point a gun at my head and shoot me.
Anyways, I swear in the name of lord
Benji that this is the last depressing entry.
Or I pray it is.
Its time to be happy benji.
BE happy. Thats what you deserve for now.

Benji


| Stripped and Lusted 10:06 PM| |

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about the boy.
'benji
02may88.taurus
maxatom@hotmail.com

sitting in the dark.
in a room. facing the wall.
looking back at the past.
wearing a mask, hiding the truth.
it's time to reveal everything.

gaps left behind.
the streets were wet and the gate was locked.
so i jumped it and let you in.
with your hand around my waist.
everything could be felt again.
and i knew that you meant it.

not forgetting.
Andy
Benji
Cindy
Chu Yang
Dennis
Darren
Fyedee
Gary
James
Jeremy
Jiawei
Jimmy
Jayden
Matthew
Max
Nick
Shuhui
Sean Remiel
Trent
Wei Hao
Xiaotaizi Didi

I declare.

I declare that there are losers in life. But nothing compares to those whom spam tagboards. Cause they have nothing better to do but try to beautify other people's life by the attention they are giving.

Blessed Be,



antiquity.