:Monday, April 03, 2006:

yet another day has gone pass me.
a day of rest with nothing but an excuse
to cover it up. Ever wonder why days
like today to me seem to pass so damn
fast. And as i wish and urge for more
days to take leave, i ponder to myself
why the hell am i working for. everything's
becoming to interesting already. school to
start, routines to repeat.

getting to feel sick of it. yet what about the
people who have been doing it for the past
10 to 20 years of their lives?
a talk about the past today makes one
realized that the gaps still remain. No matter
how far we may go, how deep we may fall,
the past of us will always be that past of us.
Those who refuse to accept it are just living
a life of a lie. Its time that i smack myself
awake, to face whats coming ahead of me.

but then again, there's so many people,
sometimes my future looks so bleak. that
i feel lost. back to where i was again years ago.
going around in the same circles waiting for
someone to pull me up. Today is just a day.
what comes tomorrow or the day after, no
one knows. Death may linger around the ones
we love the most and soon, we might be gone.
But then, its time for me to start believing my
fate and doubt my faith.

for i do not know which will help me much.
dont forget that a benji actually walked this
earth. just a different path from the majority.

Benji

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