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:Tuesday, April 25, 2006:

I'm afraid in everything that is happening
around me. Why friends are telling me that
things will get better when they don't. Why
friends listen but keep quiet about it. Why I
will never talk to my parents very again about
my problems. Cause the reason that I always
get from them is just about maturity.
Am I not matured? Communication has
long passed its time of expiry.

I feel the hurt that has been haunting in
me all these while. Its growing and its taking
over soon. The weakness of my soul and body
has lost. I cannot bear to see you in someone
elses embrace. Yet my mind runs a race when
you're not getting back to me.

I'm tired. I'm exhausted. Just tell me its
all over so I can die in peace. I have you
yet I don't have you. I'm lost in everything that
we did. Someone stab me so hard to numb
myself from all these trouble. I'm tired of
plastic lies. I've accepted enough reasons.
Yet I'm still afraid. What if. What if?
Tell me everything is going to be fine.
Wrong. That doesn't work anymore. It hasn't
been fine for a long time.

Again, I'm sitting alone in this dark room in my
corner on my chair, waiting for just that one
to set me
Free.

Benji


| Stripped and Lusted 9:05 PM| |

__________



about the boy.
'benji
02may88.taurus
maxatom@hotmail.com

sitting in the dark.
in a room. facing the wall.
looking back at the past.
wearing a mask, hiding the truth.
it's time to reveal everything.

gaps left behind.
the streets were wet and the gate was locked.
so i jumped it and let you in.
with your hand around my waist.
everything could be felt again.
and i knew that you meant it.

not forgetting.
Andy
Benji
Cindy
Chu Yang
Dennis
Darren
Fyedee
Gary
James
Jeremy
Jiawei
Jimmy
Jayden
Matthew
Max
Nick
Shuhui
Sean Remiel
Trent
Wei Hao
Xiaotaizi Didi

I declare.

I declare that there are losers in life. But nothing compares to those whom spam tagboards. Cause they have nothing better to do but try to beautify other people's life by the attention they are giving.

Blessed Be,



antiquity.