:Tuesday, April 18, 2006:

2 sides to a coin, 2 sides to a person.
As most of my readers already know,
the mask has repeated itself many times
on my entries and I still have to stress
the significant factors of the mask.

Appearing okay on the outside doesn't
mean its okay on the inside. Having to
feel that everything is fine and making
my life feel so nice on the outside, doesn't
make it okay on the inside. Once again,
here comes to mask. Having to cover
whats on the inside, hiding every
single pain you have on the inside, not
potraiting it to anyone.

So now I say, a troubled kid remains
a troubled kid. Nothing is going to change
that. I cannot forget the thinks that has
happened and well, don't expect me to act
as though nothing happened. Don't pity me.
I hate pities. Love me for who I am and not
of what I am. Acceptance is something most
people don't get.

People don't know how to accept kindness
served on a platter. Its also funny how people
call you gullible when you believe and paranoid
when you don't - thanks to my bud max for
making me understand.
But then again, looking up into the sky.
Its a different place we're at but its the same
sky we're looking at.
Again, I've walked the same grounds but just
a different path from the rest.

Coming to accept the things that others cannot
accept. Its weird too, that sometimes,
you happened to be so important in my life,
but as time passes, you just become

not important.

benji

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