:Thursday, March 16, 2006:

The typical weakness of people, getting played around
relationships and having feelings come and remain .
It remains for the people that I once loved and cherished.
But knowing that things will get out of hand, we still
fall for that trap that has been laid for us. so what do we
actually do when things get out of hand?

We learn to accept the fact or go against whats not
meant for us. People say that i dont know how to accept
the love that people have for me. Is that it? or that there
are just 2 sides to a coin. And then again, Having to put
a front in the pressence of others. How ironic is that when
there's a past between us. Ignoring the feeling deep down
inside that caused the love and hurt in both of us.
Yet the selfish thing that i could say is,
you mended my heart just to break it when you left.

Yet, not a tear did i shed for us. Blame myself? i have been
blaming myself for far too long, against far too many things.
Whats wrong with falling for someone yet knowing it will
come to no end and just be a waste of time cause there's
no possibility for ever working out. Therefore, for this I have
to say, Babe, give up on me. I ain't worth it. Its not me that
you want in your life. There are better people out there
for you. I'm just not the one.
You see, the gaps still remain in the heart. It never really
heals. Who will be the one that heals it, will be my one
and only.

To that person, i give my world and my everything.
I ain't sitting here waiting for just that. But when it
comes, it just comes. we fall in love for the wildest ideas.
I have made many wrongs in my life and i guess,
this time its to make a right.
If i dont get to see the morning sun tomorrow, please
tell mummy I love her.

Benji

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