:Wednesday, March 15, 2006:

the mistakes that we all made, be it
forgiven or not. the matter still remains.
the love that we all have,yes, me included,
no doubt. having to know that there's always
a someone in our heart that we want to have
and to cherish. But not knowing whether
it'll come true or not, or having to wait for
a life time knowing that you will get nothing.
Leave that in out fantasy whole when we dream.

But it so happenes that the love that we have
so much for a person happens to hurt us back the most.
sounds contradicting? we know that we'll get hurt
sooner or later. so why love? take the risk to be happy?
sounds oxymoron. but we're all human after all.
so here i am, sitting in this cold, thinking of when we'll
actually talk. when will things become the way we
wished it would be. Waiting by my cell, just waiting for
that message to come like before. but deep down,
knowing that it will not be the same old us anymore.

For all the thigns that i have done wrong, forgive me.
for everything that was expected that i didnt do, forgive me.
but then again, this isnt a story which ends with a happy ending.
we expect too much in the things that we want or hope
the most. relationships. crushes. are the wants or desires?
so here i am, not accepting people's love? i dont know.
i'm confused. whats accepting love to you.
i have seen and heard too many lies of decite to carry on.
being played or to play?
baby, i'm still here, waiting for you to take me home.

Benji

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