:Monday, March 13, 2006:

I was having a conve with a friend during work
just now and i realized that my life hasn't been
that of what i expected it to be.
Having touced on the topic about relationships
and love. Is it just best not to get into one, or get
into one but not get too deep.

Having looking back at my relationships.
the people that I loved the most happen to
hurt me the most and the people who loved me
the most got hurt too. AYE. call me jinx from now
on. I just realized what an ass and a fool i have been.
Having to know that there's no possibility in
anything that concerns 'hope'.

the boy's tired and disillusional. don't talk about
mindsets anymore. nothing seems right. nothing
but the music that's playing in my mp3.
Be it emo, MOS dance, love. Does it all matter anymore?
or is the routine coming everyday. repeating itself.
look at the time and i ponder, as i pen down my
thoughts.

i reach home late after work. and i realized
that i ain't that strong as i used to be. The people
around me arn't the same anymore. The close-ness
of my dearest happened to be fading further away.
I guess its time that I admit of living a life less ordinary.
excuses are just lies put in good words. nothing more,
nothing less. I'm just starting to believe in
my fate and starting to doubt my faith.

Benji

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