:Monday, March 20, 2006:

As I make my lonely and quiet way home after
a tiring day or work, I look back on the things that
happened today and asked myself, Is it worth me?
As I sit at the back of the bus with the song hands
down by DC and ugly by sugababes playing on my
ipod, I look to the sit next to me and sigh.

Wondering when will be the next time you will
accompany me back home from work after a bad day
like today. Holding my hand, constantly telling me
that everything will be better then next day. But
as I turned to look out of the window, all i saw was
the cars passing me by and the people walking along
the streets.

As the lyrics of DC hits my mind harder, all I want will
be my bed where I can hide away and not allowing
anyone into myself anymore. What makes things worst
is the appearances in dreams that are so unexpected,
causing lousy mornings with a sunken heart. I guess as
a friend once said. The gaps still remain. And it doesn't
heal that easily.

I'm not ready to accept someone back in me. Cause in
my mind, i guess i'm still waiting for a time where the
past will be the present and last that way forever. But
until i can get over you, I guess it's not time. The places
that we used to hangout. The cinemas where we used to
cuddle together and the long strolls walking me home.
I guess this phrase will be for me and my kind,
because life isn't a straight line. Therefore, we are being
played.

Benji

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