:Thursday, February 23, 2006:

trying not to think of the past
or things that happened in the past is
somewhat impossible. Although a word
of mouth by saying that I will not think
of it is utter bullshit. we're all humans.
who we trying to kid here?

the past, our ex(es), our life and yes,
our family. The way people treat you.
The way things work around you.
I guess that in this LIFETIME,
i wont be able to forget. But i have
someone with me, to be there if
i needed a shoulder.

So here i am, sitting in this chair,
typing for my blog, coughing and blowing
my nose. darn. when will this flu go.
this shows that we arnt as strong as we
used to be or think. But who are we?
that same covered mask everyones wearing?
nothing can be written out in black or white.
we can show who we really are.

but no matter how hard i try. I cannot
stop thinking about it. I need you. I want you.
But im afraid that things wont turn out the
way you expected things to be. Its all gonna
be my fault again. I wanna hear you breathe.
the smiles and tears that flow from your eyes.
i guess baby, i'm empty.

Benji

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