:Monday, February 20, 2006:

to play or to be played. to be or not to be. to cherish or not to cherish.
having the song by Mariah playing on my mp3 all the way home.
Can't Take That Away. aye, I guess that one cannot listen to the song
so much till the extend of wanting to give up and MIA-ing for awhile.
There's no one to face and everyone's disappointed with me.

Getting hurt or causing hurt to the people around me doesn't matter
anymore. Its time I wake up and not give a shit to the people around me.
After all, i'm being stampled on like grass all the while. People take me
for nothing. Being nice isn't an option now ain't it? Having to a friend that
one's only playing in a relationship but then falls deeply for the person.
what a hypocrite.

But the bad ones are the one that starts the rumors.
I won't let bitches get me down nor will i get pushed over by it.
That i promise.
Its time that someone has to wake up and stop being weird.
Stop having flings and stop flirting already. aye..
Once bitten Twice Shy. familiar?
Who i belong to doesn't matter anymore.

Breakups are part of life. Moving on shows the determination.
For people like me, I don't think i have any of those.
Till pendora box opens, i'll be lying here silently in the night,
praying for all those out there like me. But i guess that
trust isn't a word to use anymore. ayee.
Lyin in the silent night waiting for someone to prove me wrong.

Benji

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