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:Thursday, February 09, 2006:

the thoughs about life thus far over the past 18 years.
the things that i have done and of course the things that i have yet to do.
the past memories left up there in my mind.
the scars and the gaps will remain and it aint going fade.
no mask can cover up a mistake like that.

as for the past, history has already been written by us.
and looking towards the future,
the future is for us to write. the way we live it and feel it.
every difference a day makes doesnt affect us at all.
stop having the idea that everything that i do,
has to come with an intention and will benefit me or the people
around me.
because sometimes, it just isnt. i aint doing it for myself.
and you can cut the crap to think that i am doing it for you.
don't go getting all disappointed over nothing because in the end,
its not me that you want.

getting all MIA isnt running away. its just soul searching.
to wait for someone like me is just like waiting for rain in this
endless season of draught. Its not coming until the time is right.
and i dont know when the time is right.
being famous isn't what i want or what i hope to achieve.
this is just a blog. having unknown taggers coming here,
leaving verbal diarehhea everywhere is not a norm.

don't reply the tags if you dont want to.
tag it if you want to. but at least have the sensible mind of a human
to use a proper name. fancy having to talk like one knows me
so well and i am able to relate to him or her. keep wishing.
people that try to understand me and read me like a book
hasn't even gone through the cover page.
having people coming up to me saying that they know me.
er, i dont know you. so have the courtesy to say hi.
screw this.

Benji


| Stripped and Lusted 10:17 AM| |

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about the boy.
'benji
02may88.taurus
maxatom@hotmail.com

sitting in the dark.
in a room. facing the wall.
looking back at the past.
wearing a mask, hiding the truth.
it's time to reveal everything.

gaps left behind.
the streets were wet and the gate was locked.
so i jumped it and let you in.
with your hand around my waist.
everything could be felt again.
and i knew that you meant it.

not forgetting.
Andy
Benji
Cindy
Chu Yang
Dennis
Darren
Fyedee
Gary
James
Jeremy
Jiawei
Jimmy
Jayden
Matthew
Max
Nick
Shuhui
Sean Remiel
Trent
Wei Hao
Xiaotaizi Didi

I declare.

I declare that there are losers in life. But nothing compares to those whom spam tagboards. Cause they have nothing better to do but try to beautify other people's life by the attention they are giving.

Blessed Be,



antiquity.