:Friday, February 03, 2006:

awoken from my deep sleep. finally being able to get up,
and face anything already. or that i hope.
the weakness of every human, which at uncontrolable urge
for feelings and emotions. having the feelings but
not the courage. thats the failure in all of us.

i cant take anymore dae -ja-vus anymore.
time will not repeat by itself. its been so long.
have the mindset to make the decision and carry on
with life. but it takes a strong mind and soul to be able to move
on. judging from one like your, i guess that its gonna be difficult.
its gonna be very difficult. and i dont want to be repeating myself
over and over again. not this dae-ja-vu. and not with
you.

i'm happy with who i have and what i am. the people around me
that supports me from falling. having to grown from a small
twig into a tree. its all thanks to them i guess.
dont ask me what will happen without them.
i guess blogging has been a rather boring account over
the past months where my life was sunken into nothing
but shit.
i'm looking like trash. face it.

Benji

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