:Tuesday, January 03, 2006:

school's started and so everything has began again.
the people work, the students study, the mother's gossip
the baby's at childcare etc.
here i am, sitting in class.
looking around where the life of the class used to be.
its still there. but, apparently things did happen during the holidays.

the boys broke up with their girls
and the girl's broke up with their boys.
when is this going to end.
or is it a never ending road that leads to nothing more than sadness.
having to come back to school means that memories that once happened
here in school has been remembered.

looking at the light above me,
when will the light in me be shone.
i'm here, sitting and waiting.
i know that i've made my mistakes
everyone's made mistakes.
but few boys own up to what they have done.

i'm still that boy that i used to be.
nothing's changed. or so i hoped.
i still have to be that kid in me.
which makes me happy though in sad times.
i wanna come to ponder on what i have done in the past
the childish things that i have done and
being able to laugh at.

i wanna still be the kid thats me.
after all, its what makes the me,
Me.

Benji

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