:Wednesday, January 18, 2006:

lying in my room staring blankly at the ceiling.
wondering what i have been doing all my life,
brooding over the past.
come on, we're all humans, we have feelings.
but its the things that hurt us one another so bad and
unbearable that makes us break down.

it makes us ponder and think again,
are we that strong like we used to think?
are we really that strong and upright?
i'm not. i'm still that kid that i used to be.
we all have to come to realize that we're just mearly
teenagers going through a change in society.

we listen to what we want to and chuck the rest away.
some of them are good advices given but we just take them for
granted.
its time that i start running again.
i'm not going to slow down just because i'm tired.
i hide the hurt of life, not knowing what it has done to me,
but i was asked whether it was worth it.

my answer will be,
i don't know.
i can't bring myself to want something anymore.
its not that its difficult.
but i'm afraid to even start.
so now i sit here,
with my song that keeps playing.
tonight i'll be sleeping to hope for a better tomorrow.

nothing is going to stop me.
after all,
excuses are lies put in good words.
therefore, no more explanations, no more excuses.
no more self pity and myself.

Benji

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