:Monday, January 30, 2006:

The last things on my mind that i will have to pen down.
my eye lids are heavy and closing on me. shutting the lights
out from me, my mind screaming to take a break and a rest.
a friend called me, having being thrown into a situation
she couldnt handle. Even having the thought to cut one's self.

don't follow down in my footsteps. Its difficult having to void the feelings
of others when the others are trying to void your feelings for them.
its just the same as chasing a dream that will never come through.
after all, no one deserve's one's tears and who deserves them wont
make you cry. Having the faith to feel and stand up again.
Don't cry because its over, but smile because it happened.

i hate being ignored. thats just me. but its the people that are closest
to me that hurts me the most. The feeling of being void and having the thought
that you might be that irritant. Having second thoughts running through
my mind. I'm in no mood to celebrate the New Year. Now, the sentence
thats running through my mind is this:
You may only be a person in this world. But to that person, you're the world.

Benji

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