:Monday, January 09, 2006:

i'm kept in the dark. there's nothing else that i can do.
but to be there, asking whether everything's okay.
lifes just like that. staring aimlessly into the night not knowing
whats out there. seeing people walk by.
the nights are getting cold.
i hide under the covered blanket.

everything's dark, dull and blur.
there are times that i wished for nanny most.
but i know that i cant get her back.
its my fault that everything happened.
i want nanny back. anything to bring her back
to be able to share my problems.

but now, i sit alone, enduring all my guilt, pain and troubles.
thats life, having its ups and downs.
or shall life be focus more on its downs.
having to tell my friends
i know that you're concern.
but you becoming more concern makes me feel worst
this is my problems. not yours.
i'm okay. i am. i really am.

i'm happy where i am, i'm happy with who i have with me
and therefore, i thank god. but its not everytime that everything comes my way.
just look at my blog.
everything's been so sad and dull.
dont read it then.
but i have the urge for japanese food.
-hints-
i'm okay. i really am.

Benji

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