:Sunday, January 22, 2006:

i walk that same old path home everyday
with different thoughts running through my mind
usually, some of them will be of the same thing thats happening
and i ponder to myself whether its worth it.
i cant say things out nor even write them down.
everything has to be kept inside.

taking its toll on me and not releasing its emotions.
whats this that we are doing now
bluffing ourself of emotions and hurt
coming to a point in the future that it doesnt really matter anymore
having to believe that we're all childish at that time.
but to what extend are we going to be that childish?
and because of the things that we desire and want to achieve so badly
that makes us this way?

its not easy on the inside to bear all these alone
waiting for someone to walk me down this path
the person that i will love so much till everything will be given up.
sitting here typing at 8 in the morning before leaving for grams
yet the same road all the way there.
its time for a different though
but everything still has its links.

no one can be deprive of feelings.
including me no doubt
i just dont want to feel the hurt of life that much and rather
enjoy its nature.
till then
i guess its gonna take time
but now the question remains.

how much time do i really have left on my hands?

Benji

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