:Monday, December 05, 2005:

aint in my really good mood today.
sister came to tell me what my mother had to say abt her gng with us next friday.
i got a feeling that she instigated everything.
fucking bitch the mother is.

for eddie's, what makes maple more important than me?
i mean its only maple.
i hate maple. thats why i nv supported it from the start.
then something else happened.

and on a seperate notion.
dont you realise that we bearly talk nowadays?
not trying to say that we are distant
but it really seem that we are.
when we're online, we talk for bearly more than 10 sentences and thats it.
on the phone, its gonna end with a
"i'll call you back"
it just ends there.

this aint the first time and i know that we fought over this matter b4
i cant help thinking that nowadays,
i'm nothing else rather than a friend.
its really that it.
if you have anything to disagree on,
feel free to come look me up.
becoz everything that i have said,
comes directly from me.

there were reasons that I didnt answer your calls,
i didnt answer anyone's calls tonight.
i was not happy with myself and my life.
i'll be leaving next friday
i guess its all i am looking forward to now.
i'll be chilling ard spore these days.
if pple are smart,
they can spot me.
i dont be the one asking pple out anymore.
becoz they just backfire.
plannings always fails.

Benji

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