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:Wednesday, November 30, 2005:

wild memories with a sudden rush.
mp3's playing mandy moore's crush
i hate my mind
i hate remembering the past
i hate my past
it isnt exactly pretty
i miss some people
they just can't seem to leave my life.
and now, i dont want them to leave.

I had to make a decision b4
and now i'm wondering whether i made the right choice
to leave silently,but in the end, i couldnt.
it came rushing back to me
i was prepared to let go,
i guess that after so long,
i am not.
i aint asking for alot.
i never asked for alot.

and i will never will
i did somethings in the past
both bad and good
all in my name
but what i didnt do was to talk back and backstabb
i want to run away from all my troubles.
i wish that i could tell somebody
but there's no one to talk to ,
nobody knows.

i cant talk to the closest person to you and the closest person to me.
thats making it all more difficult for me.
its getting worst
i'm not solving anything.
i'm just running away from everything.
i'm a failure.

Benji


| Stripped and Lusted 9:59 AM| |

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about the boy.
'benji
02may88.taurus
maxatom@hotmail.com

sitting in the dark.
in a room. facing the wall.
looking back at the past.
wearing a mask, hiding the truth.
it's time to reveal everything.

gaps left behind.
the streets were wet and the gate was locked.
so i jumped it and let you in.
with your hand around my waist.
everything could be felt again.
and i knew that you meant it.

not forgetting.
Andy
Benji
Cindy
Chu Yang
Dennis
Darren
Fyedee
Gary
James
Jeremy
Jiawei
Jimmy
Jayden
Matthew
Max
Nick
Shuhui
Sean Remiel
Trent
Wei Hao
Xiaotaizi Didi

I declare.

I declare that there are losers in life. But nothing compares to those whom spam tagboards. Cause they have nothing better to do but try to beautify other people's life by the attention they are giving.

Blessed Be,



antiquity.