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:Tuesday, November 01, 2005:

the 'closeness' of a family.
will be attending this family thing tonight which is with my dad's side of the family.
we are not close. its a really screwed up side of the family.
sometimes, i wont even call it family.
i'm closer to my friends then to them.
why do i loaf going over to meet my dad's side of the family?
but not to my mother?

the more i think of it, the more i dont like them.
they are weird.
i hope that i can last through tonight.
been thinking what i shd do these few days.
wednesday, thursday and friday.
not gng to sch.

will have to get some stuffs done,
kinda lazy..eddy wanna meet on thursday..
not sure whether i can make it..
sighs..
everything is so0 screwed..
not been in the mood to do anything
i wont really call it depression
because i am not depress.
its just that i feel so lost, confused and lousy.

one more thing. i do believe that what goes ard comes ard.
to be sadistic abit,
i'm glad that u are feeling the way i am feeling when you did that to me.
i dont care much about you anymore.
i feelings for you has died and passed the heavens.
the sound of your name disgust me more and more.

Benji


| Stripped and Lusted 2:30 PM| |

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about the boy.
'benji
02may88.taurus
maxatom@hotmail.com

sitting in the dark.
in a room. facing the wall.
looking back at the past.
wearing a mask, hiding the truth.
it's time to reveal everything.

gaps left behind.
the streets were wet and the gate was locked.
so i jumped it and let you in.
with your hand around my waist.
everything could be felt again.
and i knew that you meant it.

not forgetting.
Andy
Benji
Cindy
Chu Yang
Dennis
Darren
Fyedee
Gary
James
Jeremy
Jiawei
Jimmy
Jayden
Matthew
Max
Nick
Shuhui
Sean Remiel
Trent
Wei Hao
Xiaotaizi Didi

I declare.

I declare that there are losers in life. But nothing compares to those whom spam tagboards. Cause they have nothing better to do but try to beautify other people's life by the attention they are giving.

Blessed Be,



antiquity.