:Tuesday, March 08, 2005:

PeoPLE cHanGe..

thks to daryl for making my day today...with that show and company, i think i would have died rotting at home or of my suicidal thoughts..my life after collecting my results and affected me thinkings and doings...i feel different now...my life has soo much more now then last time and i'm not afraid to say that i'm afraid. after seeing my frenz collect their results, some shouts with bust of joy while others sulk in a corner quietly enduring the pain and "embrassment" of their results, with the addition of my ex-colleagues , miss juay shiyun, collected her results with not very enlightening results, i can feel the regret and the feeling of rejection. that feeling cannot be endured alone. no one can. after the passing of that, people change.colours emerge and many things in life has and will change. like me. i can truely see that i have change. after leaving st.gabs, i feel different. my colleagues, frenz, students, boss, and shitty people actually played apart in my working life at st.gabs. esp the Kaka HAwa, suriani, Lynn, linda,triple A, marcel, the cleaners, teachers (esp the tcher that i used my ass to put on the line) , and not forgeting my students. although they may be playful in sch and i may be strict, there is a reason and a principle, and i live by that principle. coming to realize that one of my best frenz will be leaving for a holiday some where in qatar, i feel more alone then i will used to be. and when i leave for australia next month. i juz have to get away frm singapore, frm this place, to be alone. i need to soul search myself before i dare to see anyone again...and for that, i cry to the lord for his help and strength. and to your presence that my beloved friend's cousin's passing, and may u always lead us and deliver us from evil. with this, i pray in yr most precious name.amen.
for this, i will cry and be left alone. alone...very alone.

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