:Monday, March 28, 2005:
iTs BeeN lOng BuT i'M bACkk..
ello...well, sorry for not blogging later sia...been like depressed...and damn sianz...now that my posting is out...and so many things happened in my life...hai~wat can i say except, WHY IS LIFE LIKE THAT!!? damn evil...firstly, i was supposed to go to sydney to stay with my cuz but my mum refused to the core...then i wanted to go to canada to stay with auntie margaret...but my mum refused to the core...(wtF!) then, my granddad said he wan to go to eastern europe which is like 4K per pax...and like 6 pplz are gng...so X so, nv go...then i was like supposed to go to China on may 8 but!!!! poly opens on the 18 apr 4 me...fuck! so u see, my life is so cool after...alot of shit is going on..so if anymore wanna try taking my lofe for awhile, i dunn mind a change 4 awhile...*haha*
and shiyun, i read yr blog sia...wat the shit lorz...say this kind of thing...put on the WWW some more...
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:Friday, March 18, 2005:
- i HatE u LehZ -
damn you! y u say that...then make me see so many gabrielities at J.B!! of all places...shit sia...haha...all yr fault... i will curse u back...i will curse u tooo....er...er...marry foo yong howe...haha...damn gross...no lahz...mayb meet foo yong howe on the streets...then u can bastard him rite...wah lau...its all yr fault...quick say sorry...haha
anyway, today i went to JB...then my sis not feeling well...and i spoke to my dad and my mum about gng to canada...then OK LE!!! haha...so happy...thks god lorz...i can go...argg....finally..hahaha...and of all places to meet gabrielities is when i was walking pass the pirated game shop then saw him and his bro and his family and so many others at both city square and holiday inn plaza...wah lau..haha...
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:Wednesday, March 16, 2005:
sHiT
y is the world so small...y do i have to see so many gabrielities at PS!! somemore is i teach b4 one...wah lau...kaoz...evil~! then tml i also gng PS...haiz~ hope not to see anymore gabrielities there manz...its really suicide to se my students there...like what happened to shiyun..haha...deserve it sia..*blah*
To all my frens who read my blog! y u all go suan ben chor...he is so good and guai...haiz~ dunn be so evil to him can...be better to him lahz...haha...today i realized that if i am under 17 and traveling alone...i can get special privileges. ..haha...harrold to me also...
now, lets hope that daddy let me go...he plz let me go...then everything will be settled...he is already like 60% sure of letting me go...haha...anyway...today is ok lahz
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:Tuesday, March 15, 2005:
Psalms 130
I got scolded by my dad today. and i dunn blame him now...i;m really sorry. and i may not go to canada yet...but i really hope to go...well, i juz hope that my dad will let me go..i know that letting me go alone for a 17 year old boy flying to canada via tokyo on a 17 hour flight , u have to have alot of trust and faith in him/her gng alone..
Psalms 130 : Out of the depths
Responds: Out of the depths, i cry out to you, O Lord.
1. From out of the depths, I cry to you, Lord; O hear the sound of my voice. Lord, open your ears and listen to me; I plead for your kindness, O Lord.
2. If you, O Lord, should number my sins, then Lord, who would survive? But you are forgiveness for our sins; for this we adore you, O God.
3. I trust in you, Lord, my soul looks to you as watchmen wait for the dawn. And more than the watchmen wait for the dawn, let Israel wait for the Lord.
4. For with you is found forgiveness of sin; you show your mercy to all. And you will deliver your chosen ones; deliver your people, O God.
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this psalm (130) is for the 5th sunday of lent. to repent for the sins we have commited..it is sung with alot of feelings and slowly too.
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:Monday, March 14, 2005:
i feEL NOwwW
church was like *haha* well, the songs were screechy..haha, now that i sat right at the back of choir today, i could hear the "and i will raiseeeeeeeeeeeeeee hiimmmmmmmmmmmm uppppp!!!!"..haha...sorry..but its like er...ahem*...funny..o, btw, vanessa, wat type of a qns it "have u dated b4?" like HUH?!haha...well, today was a damn freaking hot day...and my grams juz came back frm taiwan...
o, i may not go to australia already...i may fly to Vancouver, BC, Canada ...my auntie replied to my email today and i will speak to my dad again...haha...*wish me luck lord...anyway...i slept alot today...i was lazy to go swimming and jon is so irritating...haha...daryl!!!!!!!! when will u be back...i wanna go out...its so boring...help!!!!!!!haiz~
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:Sunday, March 13, 2005:
i SEe dEad peOplEe
afternoon was soO boring...my god...i was so difficult to pass time that o had to fall back in bed and fall asleep. haha...then, a mircale happened..jon and felicia msg me!!!!! asking me about dinner tonight..haha...lousy!!boo~! it was horrible...i'll nv go back to cartel to eat!!*vomit!* the freaking piece of chicken chop had so much oil in it that i use squeeze it out and still deepfry 2 dozens of chicken wings...anyway, that i how i pass dinner...and tml have an IT fair at suntec...i think i'm not gng...mama has juz come back frm taiwan and i think better go see her...haha~
and WHY are there so many gabrielities ard!! its so iritating...my god...i refused to get on the 1st NEL train...all the gabrielities are on it...and some of them are my juniors and students...cannot! i REFUSED to get on the 1st train sia...and i waiting for the next..good choice..then at PS, i met some more gabrielities. me and my big mouth to tell shiyun that there will be no gabrielities ard...wellm their prevous home was cathy cineleisure and now its PS! wat the shit...haiz~ and i see dead people...
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:Saturday, March 12, 2005:
sTrAIGhT?
tonight got BBQ, my cuz invited some of his students and colleagues frm ACB...my got i dunno what happened to ACB pplz...its so degrading...i mean, what they do...its not all the ACB pplz...its the sec 1s..omg...to see them "play" its like in a play school or something...so degrading...then they wanna play mahgong and think they so pro...haha..damn funny to see them play...boi, was i like this last time? heez...i dunn think so...anyway, they were making a hell lot of alot of noise...argg! damn irritating...like lil' kiddy girls playing like that...alot of "broken wrist" i observed..haha..well, its a free world after all...anyway...,,i heard ben sim got threatened by OMs today...i so much despise them...and ben sim is sooo weak! my god...do u have a backbone? i think wat shiyun said was right!!! for the 1st time some ting u said was worth adding on!! hahaxz...
anyway, daryl ask me wanna go gay pub to check it out sia...real eye opener...but too bad, he is overseas, and ben chor so eagerly wanna follow...Ooo...y? ben? tell me y u wann follow...haha...o, and i spoke to junny today...he seemed rather distracted and alone...haiz~well, i felt that way b4 too...have to face facts boy...start frm the beginning all over again lahz...its like this one...bo pian lorz'...
DOES ANYONE WANNA FOLLOW ME TO AUZ!!!! plz tell me now!!! I'M LEAVING IN APRIL!!! quick...tell me!!..
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:Friday, March 11, 2005:
unHapPy..
i'm damn unhappy and pissed today sia. had to put up with that freaking OMs. wtf! tell that Orange Man and his wife to fark off u son of a mother faring piece of cow shit. ass to u sia...dunn challenge what u cant handle ok..u DO NOT KNOW WHAT BENJAMIN SENG CAN DO! so i SUGGEST u keep everything to yrself..ass...anyway, i wanna thk mrs sim for the wonderful buffet lunch in sch...haha...it was nice, then at night go japanese buffet at HANABI..haha...my whole day was life living paris hilton..haha..my god..live the life of the rich and the famous sia...and dunn lofe it too...haha...
it was a rather sad and boring day too..i had to turn mr stanley tan's offer down becoz i had to meet my godma to buy some stuffs...if not i would love to go lorz...he wanted to jio me go buy camera with him..haha...but in the end, he call daryl go...and daryl is leaving tml!!! my god...no more gng out le!!! so sad...cant go out slack liaoz sia...have to spend my whole freaking life in bed...i;m sick!!! when will kenneth come back to see me!!! haha...
anyway, the worst thing that happened to me today was: I MISSED MY FREAKING 153 BUS!!! wat the hell..hahaz, chaoo...
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:Thursday, March 10, 2005:
GuLLiBLe
tired...tired...tired...haiz~...it seemz that i have no choice but to go back to school tml..tchers are so kind to ask me go to back...but i wonder what steven han is gng to say...afterall he is an ass. so? i er, do not noe what to expect tml. put everything in god's hands then...haha..wellz, i went out today, to meet daryl...what the shit!! although i was heaving slight fever...haiz~ poor sick creature. we when to play pool at monster and i met nicholas frm ACB, after so long..haha...and he still recongnized me..ha. i'm getting lazier by the day...each day when i wake up now, i feel so tired and it is like a drag to get up every morning...haiz~ i feel so sianz~ y! y! will someone like juz come into my life and change it for me..!!!? *sigh*
my mum is giving so much problem now about my australia trip...i think she is being influenced by my grams. she is so negative about me going overseas. i reli hope that my uncle will be able to go so i can stay with him..haha...i mean, i juz wanna get away frm singapore for awhile b4 my poly starts...what does she understand abt it? i'll be gng to visit my cuz over in sydney after such a long time! i mean, whats the harm? haiz~ we had a deal that after my Os, i can go over and now she is like gng back on her words...damn it..y wont she juz be supportive and not be sacastic man~!
i juz wanna have some time to myself thats all...is that too difficult to ask? anyway, i'll be gng back to stgab's tml to see the tchers and my students...hope that i still can live another day again...haha...if not i think i'll juz continue my blog about my freaking paranoid life ya..
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:Wednesday, March 09, 2005:
.tirEdd.
thks to mrs sim for waking me up day. if not i think i'll nv wake up again...well, my life today is the most slack so far. every since i quit my job, i feel so free. back to the first topic, mrs sim called me..and asked me y i'm not in sch anymore. its so difficult to answer her. there are too many things to say which makes it difficult. i mean, what if i say the wring thing? or what if she feel offended? haiz~ she was like say that i helped the teachers so much then one day i disappeared and left sweets on the table (thks to shiyun) then say that its marks and spencer...then the funny thing happened...she said "ya some more marks and spencers sweets very expensive" haha..i mean, er...ok..expensive is a very big word in my dictionary sia..i mean, nothing is to expensive for my teachers..haha...afterall they did help me alot when i was an X-gabrielitie..
well, it was damn boring today...and i refused to go out! i dunno y but i juz refused to go out!!! thks to the LOTR game that i bought to keep me occupied..and neopets..haha...if not i'll be in my grams display cupboard already..haha..well, i'll most probably be gng back to sch already on thursday..to see my teachers, colleagues, students and the not so wanted orange face man aka mohpeng. well, lets see if u can live through another lonely day alone... and shiyun!!!! HELLO!!! WAKE UP!!! haha...damn X-TRA sia u.
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:Tuesday, March 08, 2005:
PeoPLE cHanGe..
thks to daryl for making my day today...with that show and company, i think i would have died rotting at home or of my suicidal thoughts..my life after collecting my results and affected me thinkings and doings...i feel different now...my life has soo much more now then last time and i'm not afraid to say that i'm afraid. after seeing my frenz collect their results, some shouts with bust of joy while others sulk in a corner quietly enduring the pain and "embrassment" of their results, with the addition of my ex-colleagues , miss juay shiyun, collected her results with not very enlightening results, i can feel the regret and the feeling of rejection. that feeling cannot be endured alone. no one can. after the passing of that, people change.colours emerge and many things in life has and will change. like me. i can truely see that i have change. after leaving st.gabs, i feel different. my colleagues, frenz, students, boss, and shitty people actually played apart in my working life at st.gabs. esp the Kaka HAwa, suriani, Lynn, linda,triple A, marcel, the cleaners, teachers (esp the tcher that i used my ass to put on the line) , and not forgeting my students. although they may be playful in sch and i may be strict, there is a reason and a principle, and i live by that principle. coming to realize that one of my best frenz will be leaving for a holiday some where in qatar, i feel more alone then i will used to be. and when i leave for australia next month. i juz have to get away frm singapore, frm this place, to be alone. i need to soul search myself before i dare to see anyone again...and for that, i cry to the lord for his help and strength. and to your presence that my beloved friend's cousin's passing, and may u always lead us and deliver us from evil. with this, i pray in yr most precious name.amen.
for this, i will cry and be left alone. alone...very alone.
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:Monday, March 07, 2005:
EvOLUTiOnnN
today...is sunday...its boring...i juz watched assault on precinct 13..quite a nice show. well, my Os really suxs and i'm damn depressed over it, althought i can get into a poly but not the course of my choice.haizz. i juz quit my job at St.Gab's, school politics...it suxs...esp with useless OMs around the place..i'll be having so much free time on my hands now be4 i fly over to Australia for 2 weeks..wellz, sorry shiyun, u have to like suffer with the class of 2Ns and foo yong howe and the farking OMs, everyone noes how useless they are already so no one blames u if u cant take their horendous nagging and complaining because firstly, their time on earth is limited.., their old and weak, their brain is detriorating, they are jealous that we can play basketball and they cant becoz they old and weak and we're young at heart, they noe that we are a threat to their job, they noe that no matter wat...we will still be better than them as our repore with students are far much better than theirs... AND!! lastly, their brains are that of a 2 year old now...with Mr Steven Han aka MOHPENG, a big FARK to you u motherfarking piece of orange face shit. get yr sorry white born ass out of my holy balotic land.
wellzz, leave school behind..its over, i feel really sorry for the X- gabrielities and the soon-to-be X-gabrielities.
Since old boys arnt suppose to go back to sch anymore, the old boys association WILL definitely close down.
i really cant wait be4 i fly to australia...i juz wanna get away of a short while, leave singapore behind...to enjoy. .thats that. for now, all i can do is to spend more time with my family, relatives, and all friends..
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:Sunday, March 06, 2005:
mAaTrIxx eVoLUtIoNn: EvOLUTiOnnN
mAaTrIxx eVoLUtIoNn: EvOLUTiOnnN
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